i think im paranoid*
*someone who exhibits extreme and irrational fear or distrust of others

You can look, but you cant touch
I dont think I like you much
Heaven knows what a girl can do
Heaven knows what youve got to prove

I think Im paranoid
And complicated
I think I'm paranoid
Manipulate it

Bend me, break me
Anyway you need me
All I want is you
Bend me, break me
Breaking down is easy
All I want is you
I fall down just to give you a thrill
Prop me up with another pill
If I should fail, if I should fold
I nailed my faith to the sticking pole

I think Im paranoid
Manipulate it
I think Im paranoid
And complicated

Paranoid I think Im paranoid

Steal me, deal me, anyway you heal me
Maim me, tame me, you can never change me
Love me, like me, come ahead and fight me
Please me, tease me, go ahead and leave me
Bend me
Break me
Anyway you need me
As long as I want you baby it's all right

Bend me break me
Any way you need me
As long as I want you baby it's all right

paranoids love Garbage!

nothing intriguing crossed my mind

hence this picture..



giler cool aah rambut die!!


(will ban Brisbane school of hairdressing for a while)

wishy wish

There are so many things that I wish I could be.For example,I wish I was more outgoing and outspoken so that I could talk to anyone and befriend more people. I also wish I was more emotionally detached so that I could stop being so sensitive coz it made me feel so vulnerable and helpless and bloated with feelings of guilt sometimes.I wish I was funny and witty so that I could say all the clever things and make people laugh.I wish I had a stronger mind so that I could for once ignore what other people would think and say about me.I wish I was a better mind-reader so that I would know the things to do satisfy and make other people happy. I wish I was less selfish and be a more giving person.I wish I was more optimistic so that I could worry less, loosen up a bit and enjoy the many things that life could offer.I wish I could have more fun without thinking about the consequences later.I wish I was more spontaneious, fun and entertaining.I wish I was slimmer.I wish I have longer, shapely legs (Haha). I wish I... I wish, I wish, I wish...

aku dah bosan!

tak sabanye nak tunggu grad ujong tahun nih
tak sabanye nak balik Malaysia balik
tak sabanye nak tunggu umur 26 tahun
tak sabanye nak pindah rumah baru
tak sabanye nak belaja bawak keta and of course, ade keta sendri
tak sabanye nak duduk sendri
tak sabanye nak... macam-macam aah..

seberapa pantas

assalamualaikum and hello!
im back in Brissy.Safely touched the ground of Queensland and breathed in the winter air last Monday,11th. Holiday terpakse dipendekkan.Was supposed to be an ultimate holidayer till 21st July. Cam baru je semalam sampai KL. Just 10 days. Nak makan goreng pisang pun tak sempat!Anyways, during my short time in Msia, I managed to kerja for 3 days at Petrosains..Hehe..Best! Sebab kat situ boleh laa nak catch up ngan rakan-rakan,tukar-tukar gossip dan sebagainye.I was soo lucky that K.Anina,Mujtahid,Syafiq,Arrifin, Farah and Huzaifah were still there. Its still the same science centre. Same routine and almost the same people.Some I was most delighted to see and some..well,lets just say, I just culdnt stand the sight of them.

And also, I met up with Kimah!! Kimah dearie..By any chance if your reading this,I am truly sorry for not being able to stay longer.sigh.Kena balik cepat.Lucky I went to see you that day.At least boleh tanya2 khabar, even for a short while.Next time I promise I will make myself available for you to belanja kayh!! Muahhh!!

Quite sad gak this time mase nak balik that day kat KLIA.My mom just dropped me off.Kesian dia tak larat nak send me off properly because of her still recovering legs.She can only walk with crutches and if nak gi grocery shopping ke (cam hari tuh) must use wheelchair. Luckily she can already drive.Yay! I know I should be driving her but then takleh nak wat camne kan.. Ni pun dah cukup rase miserable yang amatlah sangat.Sigh.I just cant imagine how my younger sist and bro and of course of my dad, took care of her needs for the last few months.Mase baru-baru lagi accident,she was still very very weak.Memang kena jaga dgn serba teliti nye.Nak gi toilet,nak mandi,nak makan etc etc.. Itah and Aiman,thanks yah.. Even for that short while I was at home,I did what I could to help her.Time-time camnilah kite kene jage mak kite..Baru lah rase camne susahnye mak kite jage kite mase kite kecik-kecik dulu.Ni baru sorang je mak.Kalau mak yang ada ramai anak tuh tak dapatlah nak bayangkan camne.

IFRAN!!
Oitz!! Alaaaaaaaaa..Your not in Brisbane anymore. SOB! We are so gonna miss you here. I am pretty sure skarang nih,kalau bunyi jarum jatuh pun boleh dengar kot kat unit 4 tuh. No more 'melalak' session. Aman dan damai lah Richard and Bernadette kerane unit 4 tidak akan bising seperti dulu lagi. Haha.. Tapi tak bestlaa kau takde..Serius!
Thank you for all your advices, jokes,MJ walk,openness,air coklat yg best, teman aku mase aku tgh boring and depressed etc etc..Banyak giler kalau nak list out kan semua. And sorry for everyting jugak.Tak sempat nak hang out pun mase balik that day.What happened to our plan of going to a mamak stall in Gombak yang ade salsa dancers tuh?Hehe..Next time tau..

rentetan peristiwa

Several meaningful happenings in the past few weeks which I wanted to post but didnt due to my 'endless hectic life'. Plus, I will be away for 3 weeks and might not be posting anything interesting.(at the time of this entry is typed,I am already in KL)..
And just in case, if anyone misses me during my absence, you people can always have a sneak at the piccies here..Haha..

Rollerblading bersama rakan-rakan




my 22nd birthday


Home-made pizzas + cheesecake: Effort by those yg concern and really care tht I have a very happy 22nd..


himpunan hadiah-hadiah. Many many thanks!

Also not in the picture: Birthday smses + wishes + calls esp frm yg jauh2 di sana, sling bag frm me familia and birthday cards.. T H A N K S!


memorable outings..