yang ku mau II

This is a 're-entry' of a previous post.I know some people might puke hearing another one of my rambling that clearly portray my obsession with Mt.Cootha.Cant help it.A heartfelt wish tht I dont know when it will come true.

dont go away

A cold and frosty morning theres not a lot to say
About the things caught in my mind
As the day was dawning your plane flew away
With all the things caught in my mind

And I wanna be there when youre...
Coming down
And I wanna be there when you hit the ground

So dont go away say what you say
But say that you ll stay
Forever and a day...in the time of my life
Cos I need more time yes I need more time
Just to make things right

Damn my situation and the games I have to play
With all the things caught in my mind
Damn my education I cant find the words to say
About all the things caught in my mind
Me and you whats going on?
All we seem to know is how to show
The feelings that are wrong

Remember when I said that songs make it easier to say stuff that are at times,hard to express? Yeap.This one here is another song that did just that..

Dont go away,
Just stay..

aaaaaaaaaarrrrrrrrrrrgggghhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhh...!!!!!!!!!!!

a Desperate piece of advice

"Trust is a fragile thing. Once earned, it affords us tremendous freedom. But once trust is lost, it can be impossible to recover. Of course the truth is, we never know who we can trust. Those we are closest to can betray us. And total strangers can come to our rescue. In the end, most people decide to trust only themselves. It really is the simplest way to keep from getting burned."

See, watching Desperate Housewives is not just for mere source of entertainment.I can learn something from it too, at least something that I reckon I can relate to..

whatever will be will be

All of a sudden,I am terribly scared of where the recent uncertainty in my life will lead me next... Hisyhh... I hate this feeling.

B U S Y

s i c k

h.e.a.d.a.c.h.e

c a t a s t r o p h i c



be my remedy?..

Moments that take our breath away

As we get older, it is not the things that we did that we often regret (ok, sometimes laa) but the things that we didnt do. Oleh sebab itu, I like planning things. I know that not everything that I plan will go accordingly. But somehow, when I have got a plan, there is something that I can look forward to. This is what makes life more meaningful. It motivates me whenever I have something planned out. It is not just big plans (I am not sure how you ppl define big) like special dinners/function, go holidaying or even bigger things like future plans ke yang matters.. To me, even small silly things like gi grocery shopping at Coles ke, beli orange-poppy seed muffin kat main refec ke, walking along Brisbane river ke or anythinglaa dah cukup membuatkan hati ini berase gembira dan bersemangat. Barula ade reason nak start a new day. Eventhough these are small and simple things, but they are stuff of life that sometimes we all overlook. Lumrah kehidupan, we will only realize the importance of things or people when they all have been taken away. Biler dah ade depan mate, tak reti reti nak appreciate. Biler dah hilang, barula terhegeh-hegeh nak nyesal. Hence, we must make the most out of every single day. Take notice of ordinary things that we always take for granted. We all have different definition of these things that we called ordinary. Lain orang, lain la expectation nye. Tapi tak salah kalau kite letak sedikit effort utk cube jadi lebih appreciative. Eventhough what you are trying to do might sound silly to other people, tapi biarlah kan. Sometimes, it upsets me when people do not have plans. Not that I am forcing everyone around me to be a strict supper-planner but this go-with-the-flow belief somehow, irritates me. Bukan laa salah taknak plan apepe, biar je ikut flow, bukan tak boleh, boleh.. Tengok situation laa kan. Orang boleh cakap nanti frust or sia-sia je plan, alih-alih tak jadi. Memangla. Sape yg tak tension bile bende yang plan tak jadi. Tapi dari takde effort langsung nak cube, the least we can do is try. I understand that some people have their own reasons for just letting life taking its own toll. Maybe they are afraid of what they plan might actually come true, maybe they are just too scared or just plain lazy. But whatever the reason is, wouldnt it be nicer when you have something to look forward to?

general rambling

Today was good,in general.I had lectures from 10 am till late in the evening.Surprisingly,I felt quite good (for certain things) and displeased, distressed, disppointed, dissatisfied, saddened, whatever you may call it, because of certain things. Well,it was (and still is) only one main thing that I am mad about but I just feel like using plural forms here.

Got my Business Process assignment back.It was sh** disasterous.I got it all wrong.Satu pon tak betol.Sangat-sangatla terase bodoh sekejap dikala itu.Luckily,she said I could resubmit, provided that I do it more carefully this time. (Thank you God!) Lagipun,Shazia IS a nice lecturer.I kinda expected that this will happen.Heh.Then, went to TMAN3001 lecture.I think im gonna really like this course.Why? Besides the assessments are not that hard (I hope), I get to meet Nan,Mapen,Fuad and Fazz during the lecture.Never in my life I have this many melayu Malaysians (yang kenal rapat..kan korang kan..?) in my class.So,best la.After lect, went to main refec wif Nan and Mapen. Had lunch and spent the noon borak-borak.Dah lame la gak tak borang lame camnih esp about stuff yg tak selalu diborakkan :)

I think most people will notice the 'green' students around uni within this week.Students International House yg dok promote Soiree diorang.Best gak Soiree.International food (but tak sume leh makan) and International cultural performances.The presence of 'orang-orang hijau' tuh somehow managed to light up the UQ environment a bit.Colourful.EKKA pun dah start.Nak gie ke haa? Dunno laa.. Went there last year.God knows how much I spent.Tapi best gak if pegi lagi.As long as I have got good company to go with.

Aarghh..dah banyak cerite bende-bende best yang happened today,I still feel displeased, distressed, disppointed, dissatisfied, saddened (whatever you may call it).Bongek.Bongek.Bongek. Sabar sabar. 1,2,3....Fooh.... Bosan siy**!!!!!!!!!!!!

Anyways,I am really looking forward to this wekend (with/without EKKA or Soiree).At least,I have something special and beneficial to do.Yay!!

Are things getting more and more complicated or is it just me who is becoming less intelligent?

I am taking a subject which requires me to investigate/study/analyze Brisbanes Green Bridge project which will link Dutton Park and UQ. (Find more info about it here.)

From its name, clearly I have to spend this whole semester studying about bridge. Fun stuff, I would say, to get the chance to let my so-called creativity to think of questions like; what are the devices that can be added to make the bridge more appealing? What sort of facilities can attract more people to use it and at the same time saves energy?

My groupmates and I had several discussions on how to make the bridge use sustainable energy so that it is environmental friendly. Some of our ideas included monkey bars for those who have strong arms (but what about the old citizens?), slingshot that basically will shoot people to the other side (target location can change: must put safety net around the bridge), treadmills for pedestrians to cross the river to the other end, rats/chimps on treadmills instead of humans etc etc etc. If only my brain cells can allow me to think beyond my normal level of thinking. I need to be more creative here! I remembered that when I was in high school we had this mind-mapping thing before starting an essay. I loved that at that time coz I always got some ideas and good solutions to answer the essay. The question must be much easier back then but still, I could generate my own ideas. But now, I find a bit hard to do that. Too much msg in food kot..otak pun agak lembap laa…