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My Friendster's Horoscope: Today's forecast..

The Bottom Line
You're bouncing off the walls today! Use that energy to charm someone special.

In Detail
For better or worse, someone has captured your attention, totally and completely. You can't remember the last time you felt this way. And there's a good reason for that: You probably haven't ever felt this way. At least, not since becoming an adult. It's called passion, and this wave of it is here for at least the day. What you do with it is up to you, of course, but you can cross arguing off the list right away.

Errkk..?!?! Apekah ini???..

in dire need of going to the lab..please help!

sesape yang:

• nak gi lab ITEE waktu malam
• nak stay overnite kat ITEE lab
• giler rase tak produktif buat keje kat rumah
• and giler rase nak buat keje kat ITEE lab

within this week, sile maklumkan kepada saye,ok...

currently in the makan-cam-tapir phase..aarrgghhh!!!!

those old days...

I browsed through K.Am’s blog today. On of my dearest dormmates in STF 7 years back. She just celebrated her 23rd birthday. So, Happy Belated Birthday to you!! "Buaya makhluk asing Gred A"..Haha.. Sound familiar to you tak K.Am? Hehe.. Though you might forget what that means but I still remember this gelaran very clearly. Hope you had the best birthday ever!

Out of the blue, all the memories of birthday celebrations back in high school are coming back to me. I am not the kind of person who celebrate my birthday before coming to STF. There, birthday celebrations are a tradition. I think it was because we were far away from our families, so in order to avoid from feeling homesick, birthdays were celebrated. The simplest but sweetest way was being waked up at midnight by your dormmates and close friends. And they sang happy birthday to you. And they gave you a birthday card and each and everyone of them would give you a big warm hug. It was really simple. Nothing grand. No cake, no gigantically wrapped presents, no ballons, lampu pun takde, gelap je sebab dah off-lights..Nyanyi pun kena pelan-pelan,takut nanti warden marah.Hehe.. But it was really really sweet. Just when you thought noone remembered your birthday and you were feeling really gloomy about it that you went straight to bed after prep malam, then all of a sudden, at 12 midnite sharp, people gathered around your bed and sang happy birthday. Terharunye..

Among the presents that I got during my 5 years in STF, I wont ever forget this one. It was a huge box full of Twisties. When I said huge, I really meant it. It was really really huge, people. I was in Form 4 and I had this weakness for Twisties (the one in the red wrapper especially and still a big fan up to now) and other sorts of junk food. I could eat only Twisties everyday and skipped the other meals, which wasnt good for my health (I nearly had an eating disorder at that time, but that was a different story). Anyways, I was really touched by the effort made by my friends in searching for the big box and of course the many packets of Twisties to fill up the box. If I was not mistaken, Twisties kat Ko-op tuh habes dibeli oleh rakan2 ku just so that the box was really filled with them. Best gell!! If you are reading this, Nurulakmal Obet, Fado, Neila and several other names that I couldn’t remember, THANK YOU!

Looking back at those birthday memories, I realize how I miss those old days. There are so many things that I miss that I dont know where to begin. I even miss the time when I was caught red-handed mase main-main tekan fire alarm nye emergency button and nearly got smacked for it by the warden on duty.

Now that I am older, birthdays mean a lot more to me. Though its nice to have a gathering, a party or makan-makan with all your friends but in the end, these dont really matter. It isnt about how many presents you are getting but it is about how people that you love and care about show that they really care for you by just being there. Its their thoughtfulness and presence that matter to me the most.

1,2,3 tarik nafas.........hembus.....

For the last 2 or 3 days I have been stroppy, unreasonable and moody.Thousands of appologies to those who were offended by my weird behaviour.I am really really sorry if what I said and did hurt your feelings or menambahkan kerisauan and kepeningan kepala.I didn't mean any of it.Even if I did,I should have done it in a more considerate and tactful way(in which, I still don't know how..) Probably because I am under a great deal of stress and been thinking quite a lot lately (as usual) .Anyways, I'm feeling a bit better now.I think I need to have some more chocolaty things..

Got a call from Azree just now letting me know that March allowance and OSHC sudah di settle kan.Wuhoo!!! Finally...Berjanggut tunggu..Rupe-rupenye they got confused with the names yg kene hantar letter and teroverlooked my name (among the other students' names yg tak dpt jugak..) He appologized and sounded genuinely terrible about it(which was goood and nice to hear).

He checked the amount that I should get and said "So,your OSHC and March allowance should be in by today..Waahh..Banyak jugak you dapat this month.Oshc $xxx plus March allowance $xxx..Kaya laa you sekarang.Bagus jugak ye you tak dapat semua skali that day"(Followed by his gelak2 kecil which I think he was trying nak cover laa tuh..)

Haah,ye la..Sempat ye buat lawak.Tak tau betapa meranenye poket ku last month..

Went to the city just now.Initial intention was to get a nice,long, chunky necklace for myself.But then couldn't find any.Been looking for it over the summer till now.Enggak ketemu lagik.Bagaimana nih?..Huh..Ended up buying some aromatherapy stuff.A nice smelling,green liquid Aroma Spa foam bath.Went in and out of many shops.Seen lots of interesting stuff.Like the apple green cardigan kat Valley Girl, knitted wear, the stripey and checked retro pants kat Tempt, and oh the baby blue velvet blazer kat JayJays..CANTEKK!! i want,i want,iwant!! Too bad allowance tak masuk lagi.If not,you will definitely be mine,you pretty little blazer..Bahiah bought something at VG.Ifran pun shopping gak.Busan la nih..2 more days before uni starts! Didn't do much work.But if you count lepak2,melalak,tgk network movie and main card as work.Then,mmg banyak! Oh well,from my definition of fun I had a seriously good time this Easter Break.Tremendous FUN :)

I:

• am not feeling well (extremely painful sore throat)
• want waffles for breakfast tomorrow
• wanna watch more movies (like The Pacifier,Sepet and Be Cool - again?Yep..)
• wanna enrol in Luis Pinto dance classes (me dancing?Oh yeah..)
• wanna listen to Thirsty Merc's My Completeness
• want TIRAMISU really really bad
• wish the River Festival is tomorrow
• wanna be in a band and play drums
• need to be more sensible towards the jokes of other people(eventhough they're not funny)
• really wanna go to Three Monkeys and Kylie Minogue's concert
• need to have Boost Juice's King William's Chocolate
• wanna learn kickboxing
• want shoes,shoes,shoes,shoes,shoes and more shoes
• want to design my own wedding gown
• need to learn to control unwanted silly facial expressions
• wish I could turn back time and play Faris Daniel for Drama Blok more properly(me acting? Ooooh yeah..)
• am obviously bored(or in a state of denial.You do have A LOT OF WORK waiting to be done,you know..) and it's only the first day of Easter Break.

things do get worse when you think they just couldn't get any worse and things do get better when you think they just couldn't get any better..

1) It was always stressful 2 or 3 days before my meeting with my beloved supervisor.I have to prepare myself with questions,ideas,suggestions and worse, my progress of the week.It's not that he put pressure on me.He's very supportive,flexible,lenient,helpful,funny and not to mention classically good-looking (he's from Greek background.Whoppa!). I was really stressed out today before our meeeting coz my research this week was kinda going nowhere.I was really really lost.I was ready to reschedule my meeting.Ntah camne ntah,I just went for the meeting feeling so unprepared and nervous.Luckily,it turned out ok.Better than ok actually.Got heaps of useful stuff for my thesis esp on how to develop my Visualization Tests.Plus,I got extra help from another Lecturer who offered to help me with the movies.Yey!


2) My mom accident kene langgar Kembara while she was riding her motorbike.It happened somewhere near KLCC.Alhamdulillah the injuries weren't so serious(according to my Mom la but I really think it was serious.Her knees koyak teruk..) and she's recovering. It happened last Friday.I just knew about it yesterday.Why? Coz when I called home last Sunday,the entire family didn't say anything about the accident and in fact everyone sounded happy and fine.Semuanye adelah kerane tidak mahu anaknye ini risau. Padahal at that time she wasn’t in a good condition. I was sooo shocked when I finally knew about it.Cam nak nangis ade(nangis dah pun),gelabah,cuak,gabra,risau,cam nak balik Mesia jam tu jugak dll..But everything’s fine now.Syukur sangat2.....

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My sister will undergo her operation this Thursday. I called mom last Sunday. She told my sister is doing ok despite the fact she will undergo an operation to remove a lump in her breast. We first knew about it when she went for a medical check-up utk that PKN thing.They found out there was a lump. So, they told us to wait coz they need to do like, a further diagnosis to know whether its just a lump or more serious than that. We waited for them to call. Kesian sangat my sister. She freaked out and cried when the doctor told her about the lump. But then, who wouldn’t? Simply being a woman puts any female at risk of breast cancer. Lagi-lagi at the age of 18. Absolutely terrifying. Plus the anxiety of getting her SPM result lagi at that time. Bertambah-tambah takut and stress la die..Alhamdulillah..The result of the diagnosis confirmed that the lump has got nothing to do with breast cancer. But still, it must be removed to prevent any further discomfort.

Hang in there!!

Self reminder: Must call sister before the operation. Must. Must. Must. Please do not forget.

mission accomplished!

me and salwas hot n troppo pancake
aiza n dilas Strawberry punch pancake
fazzs yummy Nachos
aizas wedges with sweet chilli and sour cream
fazzs iced chocolate

= happy,happy,happy,happy,happy,happy,happy..tralalalalalalalalalala..

only if u can see the wide grin on my happy face, then you know how important the eating spree is at Pancake Manor's yesterday

aaahh..still couldnt wipe that grin off my face today =)

PQSA Dinner

We had dinner with the Petronas VIPs last nite at Innes Room. It was nice. Been there before for Bruneian Nite so I kinda know what to expect in terms of the food and the setting. I LOVE the PowerPoint presentation by Dollah and Huda. With <Standing In The Eyes OF The World> as the background music, descriptive pictures, sufficient information, ade video clips lagi..To my amazement, the overall outcome was excellent. Technically, it was really really interactive and this is even more highlighted by the fact that no fancy programs were used to produce the presentation. Just PowerPoint. Simple. Well done guys!!

And then, I talked to Mr.Aziz regarding my March allowance yang tak masuk2 lagi. And he simply told me that :Maybe awak tak hantar surat lagi kot:Surat pekebende lak nih. Aku pun tanye dengan muka yg sgt2 blur :Surat ape En.Aziz?: :Justification letter for your results last sem and a study plan. Awak tak hantar lagi, sebab tu allowance tak masuk lagi: Waaah..Aku takyah hantar la justification letter tuh. Aku tak fail maa. In front of quite a number of people lak tuh. Chett! Malu la nih..:Tapi saye memang sure yang saye tak perlu hantar ape2 surat based on results saye arituh.Confirm En.Aziz:Dengan sengih2 kambing nye, he told me that he will look into this matter ngan Azree. Duhh..Apparaa..

Anyways, I would really like to think that last nite event was a success even though there were minor flaws here and there. But then, normal la tuh..Nothing’s perfect.. And again, congratulations to everyone who was involved. Your effort was definitely worthwhile.Hopefully someone will upload the pictures a.s.a.p..

what i really really want right now is..

any pancake with ice cream plus choc sauce and banana

and also Oreo..

di atas normal - peter pan

pikiranku

tak dapat ku mengerti

kaki di kepala

kepala di kaki

pikiranku

patutnya menyadari

siapa yang harus

dan tak harus ku cari

tetapi tak dapat ku mengerti

sesuatu

yang harus ku sadari

kau tinggalkanku

tanpa sebab yang pasti

sesuatu yang harusnya terjadi

kau sakiti aku

kau yang harus ku benci

tetapi tak dapat ku mengerti

tetapi tak dapat ku mengerti

ku mencari sesuatu yang telah pergi

ku mencari hati yang ku benci

ku mencari sesuatu yang tak kembali

ku mencari hati yang ku benci

ku mencari tetap tak dapat ku temui

ku mencari hati yang ku benci

In red,relevant,yang lain takde kene mengene.Suke bangat lagu ni!

Let go of any hatred you have because anger makes you age

I will have to agree with it. I am disappointed right now that I am angry. And I am afraid that it will turn into intense dislike and I hate myself for being in this state. Hatred and anger are like a time bomb. Given a time limit, it will keep ticking and when the time comes, it will go off. As hatred and anger are slowly being built up inside you, there will be many possible obstructive consequences that you might see. Mentally exhausted, vengeance, bitching, backstabbing, cattiness, rumours spreading and loads more. The outcome? Faster aging and a depressing life. And one day when you cannot hold it back any longer, you will explode just like a volcano.

But sometimes, you just cannot help from hating someone at his or her first sight. Or being annoyed with tiny-little-baby-hiccups matters. Or even worse, you cant even recall the reason you are infuriated in the first place. So, why am I angry in the first place? I am not sure. Maybe I have expectations that are not being met and questions that are not answered that led me feeling uncertain about things. If only I know all the answers, things will be so much easier. Can save myself from aging quickly and stay a bit younger.

You put one foot in the future and one foot in the past, you will shit on the present.

24 February 20045

back to school

I am back in Brisbane.
Back to uni.
Back to gruelling hours in the labs.
Back to an apparent life of sharing.
Back to walking and public transportation.
Back to one whole year full of promising challenges in which I hope I will successfully endure.

And I will terribly miss my time in Petrosains and all the wonderful people that I met there.
Especially K.Anina, Laila, Farah, Firdaus, Taufiq, Zam, Lynn, Sue, Hani, Farhad,Hadi and many others who had helped and guided me and of course for the friendships that they offered. [Rase cam nak nangis] Keep in touch!!

25 January 2005

daily dirts part ii

uish..dah berabuk gler blog nih..Daily? I cant even call it weekly coz my last entry was like, 12 days ago?..Just for the sake of naming this entry. Nampak cam sequel sket.12 days had passed and I am still a Petrosains volunteer,who works from 9 to 6-ish almost everyday,trying to recall all the basic science concepts that I used to learn in high school so that I can entertain the visitors.Nevertheless, quite a number of things happened within the past 12 days.

• Someone went to Sabah for a week last Sunday.
• I got a very very pleasant surprise from a friend: a very very pretty pair of open-toe-very-the-retro heels which I had my eyes on for weeks.
• I went to watch a soccer match between Petrosains and StagnoTECH team, and surprisingly found myself enjoying it waaay better than the final game Kedah vs. Perlis..
• I missed out on the chance of hanging out with my Brisbane friends(and Melbourne) and I felt really really bad about it.
• I saw Anuar Zain at KLCC one day after I finished work :)
• My sister went to the Petrosains Volunteer interview,succeded, and will start her training tomorrow.
• Most of my UTP friends had their last day at Petrosains last Thursday as they will start uni soon.Each and everyone of you will be missed very very much for different reasons: Mujtahid (your funky glasses will never be forgotten!), Fatihah (an inspiring geologist with a very very cool Mona Lisa's Smile's haircut.KIMAH,I wish you were here to see it for yourself.Pastuh,bleh geng!), Zhaf (the tallest and bubliest and also the most selambe.U rawk!), Adi Akmal(a walking, living proof that cute things come in small packages.Heh..),Firdaus(among the first person that I knew there.Rakan se'The Aviator' and rakan seperlepakan after work)
• There were also some international UTP students who were there to do their coursework.Had the chance to know them better sampai bleh main2 hit my head with a basketball and poked me (in the head,again) with gulung2an kertas mahjong presentation mereka sekali dalam 20 minit. Anuchit, you will definitely not be forgotten! Wish u all the best in UTP!
• Spider won AJL 19. Yey!!!
  
  

13 January 2005

daily dirts part 1

There was a station called Diorama in Petrosains.And there was an exhibit on volcanoes and earthquakes.Since the tsunami that day,Diorama has become quite the centre of attention.Many visitors were very enthusiastic to learn more about the science behind tsunami.I was stationed at Diorama today together with Farhad,the bubbly-ultimately crazy-UTP-student.Terhibur sket ngan anak kacukan Iran nih.Heh.Every 1/2 hour yg takde visitors he'd start singing the BM translated version of Britney Spears' songs.Gila.Tapi best!Heh..
One major blackout this afternoon.Petrosains was affected jugak.Since there was no electricity,the staffs were allowed to go out for lunch til everything was back to normal again.Best arini.Kurang visitors.Kurang kerja.Extra lunch hour.Tau2 je it was time to go home.Yey! Looking forward to tomorrow.

P/S: Just bought myself a pair of a very pink and retro mules and a pair of a very funky,so-old-school sneakers.Yippie!!

30 December 2004

satu hari yang bahagia

aaaahh....indah sungguh hari ini..tak dapat nak digambarkan dengan kate2.Semenjak dua menjak nih,saya sangat suke kerja saya.Walaupun tidak dapat dinafikan,memang penat bercakap tanpa henti dari 9 pagi sampai 6 ptg dan berdiri hampir sepanjang hari,tapi semuanye rase cam ok je dengan kehadiran 'orang-orang menarik' di Petrosains.Para volunteers 'giler' yang baik tingkah laku dan juga paras rupa.Hahaha..Visitors pun.Baru sedar,best juga sebenarnye keja bercakap nih.Takdela teruk sgt.Walaupun memang lah ade orang2 yang kurang menyenangkan,demanding,perasan bagus dan terer tapi biasela tu.Esok kerja.Yey! Tak pernah rase suke camnih biler nak keja esoknye.Haha..Memang giler..Satu lagi hari di Petrosains sebelum cuti New Year.Wuhoo!!..

28 December 2004

I was supposed to work today.But K.Sya called me when I was already on my way to KLCC, in my fave jeans and fave pair of Kustom thongs.
I was just a stand-by today to replace any volunteers who called in sick at the very last minute.Since I had to open my RHB account at KLCC, K.Sha told me to ganti someone yg absent alang2 I
was already in KLCC.After I finished the bank account thingy,went straight to Petrosains to see K.Sha.Pity her.Terkejut seeing me in my jeans and selipar.Coz,volunteer cannot wear jeans and must wear covered shoes.She was about to offer me her shoes but then camne nak buat ngan my jeans kan?Takkan la nak swap seluar ngan org lain.Lagipun,sapela plak yg rajin bawak extra seluar gi keje..
So,tak jadila nak kerja today.Had lunch with Anina and Farah at BSN pastuh bummered around before I headed back home.

16 September 2004

energy received = energy returned

This is among the first concepts tht I used to explain to the visitors during my first day as a Petrosains Volunteer.It has been 4 days (minus the training)and I am glad that I am actually enjoying myself very very much.
I work almost everyday from 9 to 6.I have never visited Petrosains before in my life. Being a science centre,there is a lot of science going on in it.In a fun and interesting way. My favourite moment is when I have to do mini science shows and all the visitors esp kids will come to gather around me, with an enthusiastic look on their faces.Today I did the resonance show.You know, when you filled up a few glasses with water,rubbed around the rim and diferent sounds were produced.I also learned a few rope tricks to entertain them.Responses like,"Eh,kak apsal ade bunyi?","Kak,kak,buat la lagi..","Penat saye gosok kak,takde pun bunyi?","Fuiyoo..Ade bunyi s****" and loads more made me feel like I was entertaining my little cousins during raye.Riuh sekampung..

And right now I am feeling really really exhausted mentally and physically but happy and satisfied.

12 December 2004

hari ni lagi

pernah tak rase menyesal yg teramat sgt like you wish you could take back everything that u said or did? Or u wish you could have made a wiser, better decision?

I think I have made a major mistake.
And I feel utterly stupid right now. And so miserable.
One of the many regrets that I have in my life that I wish I could turn back time and say and do all the right things.

Apsal la takleh nak fikir betul2 dulu?..

12 December 2004

yesterday I was nervous and excited at the same time

the day before yesterday I was anxious, a lil bit nervous but happy at the end of the day

today I am really really really disappointed....

But despite being miserable today, I think it is not too late to offer my hearty congratulations to the newly weds, Aishah and Farid. May you two be blessed and live happily ever after.

I am terribly sorry as I could not make it yesterday.Have to work maa.Aaargh..Tensi2..Apepun, adela sgt ralat coz I was not there to view the whole spectacular and meaningful event.Esp the makeup part.Miahaha..

SELAMAT PENGANTIN BARU!!

25 November 2004

Malaysia oh tanahairku...

I am in the harmonious and blessed Malaysia and my super-slow,with problems here,there and everywhere internet connection at home has made me go to this pretty dodgy Cyber Cafe just so I could check my emails and update this blog.

The obvious things that I noticed when I returned home:
WalimatulUrus di sana sini(I am excited as some of close my friends are getting married.Notice the highlighted excited), Open house di sana sini (yep,raye mmg sebulan!) and the siginificant change of weather (I was down with fever and a nasty sorethroat but I am recovering now)

A Reminder to myself:

• Reply Luqzan
• Reply Salwa
• Find Bahiah's contact no
• and of course call Huda
• and owh,call Nan juge..

To those yg balik Malaysia, this is my contact number: 012 - 395 7261 / 03-61889946
Give me a call kalau nak hang out kayh..

Have a good holiday everyone!

18 November 2004

M.E.R.D.E.K.A!

I am officially off the gigantic-scary-horrendous-traumatic exam hook.

Praying that everything will be fine...

Oh well,I will worry about that later.

As for now, I can watch all the movies that have been put off due to exam, watch the rerun of Sex and The City(utk kali ke berape ntah), sleep peacefully (no more exam nitemares) and of course start packing up to balik Ahad nih and move out for good from Campus Lodge.

Good luck to those who are still not done with their exams.

P/S: Saper rajin,meh la tolong saye packing :)

17 November 2004

raye ke exam?

Raye tetap raye walaupun exam.Sibuk camne sekalipun,beraye adelah satu kemestian.
Camner raye semua org? Ok?
My first hari raye here in Brisbane, was not that bad.
It was, initially but after a while everything turned out to be ok.

Sure it cannot be compared to Sembahyang Hari Raye at the cosy surau Bolton (we prayed under the very HOT sun here), sessi bermaafan di pagi raya(ok la here,since I have to applogize to a lot of ppl. I know I did make mistakes in the past and offended a lot of ppl; intentionally or unintentionally..Kire2,hrmm..byk la juge..0-0 ye!), juadah raye (very-the-uncomparable wif Mesia. Dpt la jugak merase mkn ketupat,rendang,nasi himpit,kuah kacang,sate dll..Isyh..Quite a lot actually.Now,be grateful Najwa.Ade org yg tak dpt mkn langsung tau), baju raye? (no comment,since I did not have any for the past 3 years), saling bertandang (raye kat sini 1 syawal je due to exams and stuf,kat Mesia raye sebulan,cube kire kalau satu hari dapat visit 5-6 rumah.Sebulan dah berape? Banyak tuh.Fat factor!!), duit raye (My philosophy: There is no age limit in getting duit raye.Haha..I still get duit raye from my close aunts and uncles.Yey!) main bunga api (we did it here@ Carmody tp mane leh compare kan.I remember I nearly burnt my baju raye with the bunga api yg boleh tukar2 kaler tuh when I was in standard 2. And not forgetting the moment where me and my 'mad' cousins used to torture the semut api by pointing our bunga api towards the semut2 yg tgh beratur merayap kat tanah..Pity them.Jahat giler..)

Aaah...Bestnye..
The Hari Raye itself mmg dah best pun.
Tak kesah la raye kat mane pun kan..
S.E.L.A.M.A.T H.A.R.I RA.Y.A!!
Maaf zahir batin..

11 November 2004

an attempt to study,gays vs. straights and My Boo

I am at Fryer Library trying VERY hard to type this while overlooking the view of some UQ buildings.From where I am at,I can see the top of some of the buildings,a carpark,green trees,housing areas,more trees and the great blue sky..

*yawn*

Finally,'The Playing It Straight' ended.Not really a big fan of this reality show but the task of distinguishing the gay guys from the straights and as u can guess,eliminate the gay ones seemed quite interesting to me.I always got it wrong.I was confident that some of the guys eliminated were gay but it turned out that they were not! Uhuh..Aku tertipu! They looked so convincing to be gay.Good looks+fancy clothes+shoes+the hair+nice bods and some other qualities that led me to think that they were not straight.Serious! Pity the girl who had to choose.Looks can be deceiving.Guys now are more aware of how presentable they look.They are starting to pay more attention to fashion rules and getting more involved in shopping(trust me on this,they do) which is a good thing.Grooming pun sometimes kalah perempuan.Haha..

*yawn*

Brain capacity is overloaded with soo much facts and educational info (haha..as if!) that there is no more room left for me to utilize my creativity in order to get this little blog updated.

Btw,idea ku sudah tiada..
Been listening to this song lately.I like!!! Anything from Alicia or Usher never fail to satisfy me.
Dedicated to all of my friends and their boos..

MY BOO

There's always that one person

That will always have your heart

You'll never see it coming

Cause you're blinded from the start

Know that you're that one for me

It's clear for everyone to see

Ooh baby ooh you'll always be my boo

I don't know bout cha'll

But I know about us and uh

This is the only way

We know how to rock

I don't know bout cha'll

But I know about us and uh

This is the only way

We know how to rock

Do you remember girl

I was the one who gave you your first kiss

Cause I remember girl

I was the one who said put your lips like this

Even before all the fame and

People screaming your name

Girl I was there when you were my baby

It started when we were younger

You were mine my boo

Now another brother's taking over

But its still in your eyes my boo

Even though we used to argue it's alright

I know we haven't seen each other

In awhile but you will always be my boo

I was in love with you when we were younger

You were mine my boo

And I see it from time to timeI still feel like my boo

And I can see it no matter

How I try to hide my boo

Even though there's another man who's in my life

You will always be my boo

Yes I remember boy

Cause after we kissed

I could only think about your lips

Yes I remember boy

The moment I knew you were the one I could spend my life with

Even before all the fame

And people screaming your name

I was there and you were my baby

My oh, My oh, My oh, My oh, My Boo

My oh, My oh, My oh, My oh, My Boo

lalala...best nye!!

8 November 2004

Things that I will miss when I move out from Campus Lodge:

1. Having my OWN room!
2. Turned on the radio until I fell asleep…
3. Leaving some of my stuffs scattered all over the room.Haha..I cannot help from having a messy room sometimes
4. My WARDROBE. I could not fit all my clothes in my current wardrobe. Having to share a wardrobe next year, makes me think that maybe I should have an extra clothing compartment in the living room? Boleh tak? (A special message to Mas, Rab & Faz) Heh..
5. My wall of fame
6. Mane nak letak semua bag2 ku??
7. The 7 mins-walk distance to class
8. Prayer/lunch breaks at HOME
9. Bangun 15 mins before class. Muahaha!
10. Unit Inspection
11. The hard-to-please Campus Lodge manager, George
12. Network full of free movies and MP3s..Isk..Isk..
13. When the fire brigade came every time there was a fire alarm
14. Burnt kitchen??..Heh.. Eventhough it was not mine
15. The loud booming music from bunkers at the nearby colleges
16. The very comfy single bed
    
    

7 November 2004

I have got absolutely no idea and motivation and inspiration to update this blog.
Sajak ye?(Hahaha..You're funny) --> bace ikut tone Yahoo Messenger...
Will be having one last presentation tomorrow.Gonna need all the luck in the world as our model was not as expected.
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Seriously not inspired to write.Even the crappy stuf..
Later ye..

And oh,GOOD LUCK to those who are sitting for their first paper tomorrow(esp the 8am session)..

25 Oct 2004

closing time...

after 1 LONG challenging year of ups and downs,I had fun working with my team.Sure,there were times when I was upset and ended up blaming some of them..Not forgetting the countless miscommunication,sleepless nites,stiff neck,eye bags,strained backs,disputes,nite meetings and so on..After 2 sems working with them,dah terbaik laa plak..One of the best teams tht I hv ever had..

DEREK: The charismatic project manager..Apart frm his ability to program,byk lagi skill2 lain yg die ade.Initially,aku cam terintimidated sket ngan die tp mmg bagus ah die nih..Kelakar jugak..

ALEX: The funny guy,sweet and sgt HELPFUL.Still remember when I accidentally deleted my 60 pgs of user manual,sanggup die dtg temankan aku di lab,download software to retrieve the file and console + pujuk aku supaya lepak coz I was on the brink of tears dah and gelabah semacam sbb i got no back-up wht so ever at tht time..Eventhough he had his own assignment yg nak hantar tht day..sweet tak?? = )

AL: Quiet tp productive..Walaupun pd awalnye agak malas..Heh..Hebat die coding..He has his own business, Internet Cafe kat Hawken Drive..Selalu tak dtg meeting sbb busy sgt dia nih ngan biznez die..Heh..Janji wat keje kan Al..

MIKE: Postgrad student.Betullah org cakap,org tua lg byk mkn garam..We got lotsa help frm him during the early stages..Walaupun die slalu la lmbt gak for meetings,tp di compensate kan ngan kerja2 yg quite on time.Good on u!

VANDANA:The unofficial walking proof-reader.Tp sometimes sbb byk sgt,she would pass some to me.My partner in presentation.Secretary for our team..

Below are the pics of the whole team..Taken rite after our last presentation..Alex laa yg beriye2 nak amik gamba group..Buat kenangan ye? How sweet...Heh..

Proud to be part of Group Q

the guys with the jacaranda..

Just look at the smiles on our faces..Signs of reliefs coz the burden was finally over

Me and Vandana with the jacaranda..Aoowwwhh..

23 October 2004

decisions,decisions,decisions..

Should I trust my instincts or evaluate my options rationally?
Should I be flattered or doubtful?
Should I be exceptionally friendly or more reserved?
Should I conform to the authority or live by my own rules?
Should I feel insecure or just grateful?
Should I be picky or just accept things the way they are?
Should I be frank or say things that other people wanna hear?
Should I stay calm or start panicking?
Should I like you or hate you?
Should I keep quiet or start talking?
Should I wait or start looking?
Should I help or mind my own business?
Should I care or pretend that everything is fine?

19 Oct 2004

Rain,rain, don't go away...

Finally there's sunshine after the heavy rain (it has been raining for the past 2 days)..The air just smells good.But I like it better when it rains eventhough it's dark and gloomy..Maybe because rain to me indicates blessings(so,the heavier the better), or maybe because I can always find an excuse to stay a lil bit longer in bed (under the cosy comforter,sipping coffee while reading a Sidney Sheldon's),or maybe the freshness of the air right after the rain stops(it just smells sooo good).And the weather is just great.Not too hot and not too cold.A bit windy.But just nice.Except the muddy Great court.What a good start of Ramadhan.I am cooking everyday and ENJOYING it (not sure how long this will last though).Most of my BIG assignments have already passed.I am just left with Modelling(I am sure I will suffer for this.But it will happen later) and a presentation.So, for now,everything looks good.I am just hoping and praying it will remain this way for quite a while.May I have a meaningful and blissful Ramadhan..Semoga saya menambah amalan dan jauhkan dr perkara2 mungkar nih..Heh..

P/S: Picture of our juadah on the 2nd day of fasting with Huda,Bahiah and Kimah..

17 Oct 2004

I had the shock of my life when I got back the marks for my 2nd assignment.Yey!!Alhamdulillah.It was FAAAAR beyond my expectation.So,last Friday,I went to see Lazaros Kartanis, my Modelling & Visualisation lecturer to pick up my paper.

Me: Thanks for fairly marking my paper.
Lazaros: No..No..Thank you for writing such an excellent paper.I can see that you've done a thorough research paper.It was a pleasure reading your work.
Me:(Senyum tahap tak ingat dunia..)

20 mins after that..I was waiting for Stefan outside Lazaros' office.He was asking Sean several questions about how to scale the building.Suddenly,Lazaros came out from his office heading towards the elevator.

Lazaros:You're still here? (Then he saw that I was reading something)
Ooo..Admiring your own work eih?..
Me:NO!! I was reading through my assignment that I have to submit today.
Lazaros: Ooo really?..Hahaha..Naah..You know, it's actually OKAY to admire your own work..
Me:No..No..I am not reading my essay.Seriously.
(Aku betul2 serius nih..I am actually reading my business essay)
Lazaros:Hahaha..Yeah rite.(Continue laughing..*Bertambah segaknye die bila gelak*)
Anyways,do you mind if I show your essay to the other students as an example?
Me:Yep.Sure thing..I don't mind at all..
Lazaros:Good then.Well.I've got to go for lunch..In the meantine,you can continue admiring your work.Hahahaha..

So Lazaros,thanks heaps!! You are now my fave lecturer..

gimme a break!!!!

While typing like a mad woman on the keyboard of my old and worn out PC, without even giving the slightest hint, my PC shut down secara tetibe.Aaarghhhhhhhhhhhhhh!!!! Saya tak sempat nak press button save pun.Terkedu nye laa..Luckily, the things that I did not have the chance to save,was not a lot..Otherwise, I'll be damned.It turned out that the main switch yg wat hal.Manja tol lah..Nak merajuk konon..Chett!! So, now I am living the life of a caveman..No TV, no PC, no Radio, no music, no entertainment, not even my dearest Mr.fridge (there goes my Bulla, dahla baru beli semalam)..Not sure whether I can get George, the repairman to come and fix the circuit in our house asap. Dia nih asyik bz jek.Save my Bulla please!!!

11 October 2004

hikayat kura-kura & arnab

Tahap kerja saya adela sangat slow mengalahkan kura-kura yg lumba lari dengan si arnab. But in the end, si kura-kura berjaya mengalahkan si arnab yang bongkak itu disebabkan kebijaksanaanya dan yang paling penting kesabarannya yg tinggi walaupun dihina dengan amat hebat sekali oleh si arnab.

Maksudnya disini, saya haruslah bersabar macam si kura-kura tu dan meggunakan kebijaksanaan anugerah Tuhan demi menghabiskan segala assignments saya minggu ni. One essay for Minds & Machines due Wednesday, a final demo for my IT team project on Thursday and a 2500 words essay due Friday. Having 3 major things that are due on 3 consecutive days are great.Really.*choke*

Based on the story, siapa agaknye si arnab tu ya? Boleh jadi para teammates dan groupmates saya yg kadangkala begitu intolerable fe’el2 mereka. Nak habiskan project tapi cara2 kerja untuk sampai finishing line tidaklah 100% dan kadangkala diselitkan dengan perbuatan mengelat dari segi mutu kerja mahupun tenaga.

Tapi yg paling penting, akhirnya si kura-kura tuh berjaya jugak kan? Jadi, saya mungkin harus menggunakan strategi seperti kura-kura itu: Kayuh pelan2, lama-lama sampai (I think I should have a reference for this quote).

Go Najwa!

9 October 2004

you got served

I went with huda to watch You Got Served yesterday.The movie was not that good.It was pretty bad.The acting was awful and stiff.It has zero plots.The dialogue was, O.M.G, much worse. It was sooo stilted. And oh, I forgot to mention the special appearance of Lil Kim made it all much sloppier..

However, it was VERY entertaining (at least to me). The great combination of the awesome hip-hop dancing and the enjoyable series of dance battles so long as you like this sort of thing.
Plus, there was Wade Robson, the talented choreographer/dancer. He was the man behind all the groovy dance moves for Usher, Britney, and Nsync. Too bad he didn’t do any dancing in the movie. Just another special appearance. Well, watching the hip hop dancers with their nice bods showing off their skills definitely made my Friday nite. In the end, all the bad acting and stuffs were compensated with the cool dance moves.

munasabah ke tak?

Saye tau ape yg saye tak tau tapi tak pasti nak tanye camne,
Saye tau ape yg saye nak walaupun saye tau kadang2 tak munasabah,
Ade mase pulak saye tak tau ape yg saye nak walaupun jawapan die dah terang2 depan mate,
Boleh tak saye nak bende yg saye tau macam tak brape munasabah tu,
Pada mase yg sama benda yg munasabah saye boleh dapat saye taknak la pulak....

Hmmm..camne eh?

7 October 2004

tersayur

+

tersalai

...But you got no relief from the pain in your head

And it's hollow and greased and it says that you're dead

But you make fun and tease and the things that you said

They always stab your back...

..::88::..

5 October 2004

the importance of serenity

When I am working in the lab, with my head soo full of thoughts and confusions, plus the difficulty to construct sentences in complete academic English and at the same time trying to find the perfect journal article to perfect my argument, the last thing that I need is people coming into the lab, conversing and laughing soo loud that I couldn't shut their voices off even after i turned up the volume of my MP3 player to the max.Please la,have respect towards other people who are working kayh..Don't they realize that other ppl are actually struggling to concentrate on their work?And it was a hard thing to do if you people keep talking as if nobody else was there.

spring break is coming to its end.correction.it's not even a break.considering the days tht i had to spend working on my user manual or modelling for a stupid building.sorry.i'll rephrase that.not stupid.but lifeless??whatevaa~

yesterday was hectic.and hot.took pictures of a really complicated building.under the sun.before that,supposed to hv a meeting at 10 am.and wht time did my darling team mates turn up? 40 mins after 10.it was such a 'joyous' occassion.waiting for nothing.wasted my bloody time.when they came,in my head, i could see myself strangling them.but to avoid any complication,i forgave them for being late.takpe,lain kali buat lah lagi...fortunately,managed to get quite a number of things done.

well,i guess that's how i spent my spring break.economical (i managed to curb my spring shopping), educational (meeting,meeting and more meetings!), filling (eating like there's no tomorrow.overfed but happy :p) and relaxing (no further elaboration).

pissed off nye!!!!!!

27 September 2004

is it cos i m cool?

Is it cos I m cool

Why you dress like me

is it honesty or you just a fool

Is it cos I m cool

Why the school kids laugh cause the papers got it wrong again

Is it cos I m cool

Take a piece of me serve me up on a plate in your restaurant

*Is it cos I m cool, Is it cos I m cool

Is it cos I m fly

Cos I said what I said when I said what I said but I didn’t say

Is it cos I m hip

Why you dig my shit and you say I am a fan now I understand

Is it cos I m hot Why you mention me in your V.I.P memories

*

I ain’t buying or selling today

I m just looking around

For some decent conversation

No hidden agenda

No phony pretender

No holding on out for no sweet sixteen

Or peppermint dream

I’ll call you please don’t call me

*

Is it cos I m Smart

Why you break my heart

with the lies you tell baby kiss and tell

Is it cos I m wrong

That you jump right in

with no discipline baby sink or swim

Is it cos we’re friends why you use my name just to entertain yeah

*

Time keeps ticking and running away

And it’s taking us fast to a brand new free dimension

Too cool to mention well that is the intention

But some of us too damn blind to see

It’s setting us free

To say goodbye to jealousy

*

::mousse t::

revival of the 60's:retro revisited, I like!!

26 September 2004

Friday-24th
yey! CUTI!!! Saye rase saye adela manusia yg paling gembira sekarang nih sebab mid-sem break dah mula..Tadi ade presentation utk Projek IT.Saye & Vandana kene present.Memula, cam gabra jugak sbb ni aderla projek besar budak2 IT.Jadi,tak boleh screwed up walaupun satu perkataan.Alhamdulillah..Hasil saye berceloteh selame 5 minit nmpknye berhasil.Smooth.Sessi tuh pun cam best jek.Takdela org2 dengki yg nak tanye soalan2 susah yg sampai takleh nak jawap..Semua ahli2 kumpulan happy je.Alex congratulated me & vandana for doing such a gud job.Aaahh..worthwhile nyer... =)

Saturday 25th
Olehkerane Friday nite tak jadi keluar,so, saye pun keluar arini..Bangun awal,to embrace the start of spring break.Lepas buat ape yg saye selalu buat pagi2,pegi city around 1 o'clock.Sebab ade orang yg tgh lapar and nak makan sepuas hati, ended up makan kat satu kedai india nih.Saye baru tau tentang kewujudan kedai nih.Rupe-rupenye kedai tuh dah lame ade.Hello,Najwa..Where have you been? Punye laa ketinggalan.Boleh tahan gak laa food die.At least ade option lain dah kalau nak makan kat city.Lepas tuh,saye discover yg saye ade birthday mate kat bumi Brisbane nih!! Jauh tak? Hahahaha..Excited gak la sbb tak pernah jumpe org yg same birthday before nih.Tarikh yg dekat2 aderla.Kat skola dulu, Pekjah-28th May..Pastuh,kat sini,Luqzan-30th May.So,Happy Belated Birthday To You!! (Tulaa rahsia2,dah tak dpt birthday present =p)

Today,Sunday 26th
Beberape orang kawan saye bertolak ke Melbourne pagi nih utk MASCA games.Ade team soccer and basketball.Bestnye kalau saye dpt ikut sekali.Tapi sayangnye takde team netball.Naik bus dr Brisbane ke Melbourne aderla saaangat lame.Ape pun, gudlak korang!! Main betul2 tau, kalau menang laaagi best.

22 September 2004

rock chic

I had a wonderful dream last nite.I usually forgot what I dreamt but this time, unintentionally,I still remembered what my dream was when I woke up this morning.I dreamt that I was playing the drums as an opening act for a HUGE concert.Couldn't remember whose concert I was playing for..Hopefully it was some great,famous rock band. I could still remember the feeling of being sooo overwhelmed by the massive audience while playing the drums like a pro.Miahahaha..(I know that I am not that good but kasi can maa,dlm mimpi..) Main cam terer je.Best gler!Gler best! And then,there were the other guys who played the guitars and stuf..Absolutely mind-blowing! And the crowd was cheering,calling out MY name!! Hohoho..Lawak2..Spotted in the crowd was someone that I knew who looked sooo stunned seeing me up on the stage. Hahaha..His expression was definitely priceless. Mimpi paling best abad ini. Damn! I should have done the stage dive ker crowd surf ker in my dream.Tak sempat.Sebab pastuh terjage...And until now, I can't stop smiling,thinking about my dream last nite.

20 September 2004

having tiramisu + kek batik = made me happy
sharing them with a sick friend = made me feel even better

The satisfaction that you get when helping others that are in need is no doubt, beyond words.

18 September 2004

Had an early start today.Group meeting at 8 am.Discussion on presentation that's due next Friday.Vandana and I have to present.So,reminder to myself: PREPARE THE SLIDES!!We were discussing abt previous presentations tht we had when suddenly the topic of why women like diamonds came up.So,they argued that:

If i promote diamonds and get a guy to but it,then it's a real success as they will only buy diamond once in their life(that is when they propose to their girlfriends).
My point of view: Stingy??

Mike stereotyped that women value money significantly (in other words, women tend to find a super-rich boyfriends and husbands and marry them because of money)
My point of view: Not all women..But can't blame them though..

But Derek argued that yes, it's true that money is important but you can't base your relationship on money if you want a relationship that works.Quoted,"See, I am broke one but I do have a gf what?.."(in a very Sing-lish reply)
My point of view: Alalala..Isn't that sweet?

Alex pulak kate, women love to see men suffer for them contohnye when they buy a diamond ring for them..
My point of view: eyy...manede laaaa

I rephrased that by saying, "Nolaa,Alex..Not suffer.But sacrifices for your loved ones.."

Followed by my groupmates' cynical laughter
My point of view: tande2 tak percaye la tuh..

Mike still insisted on the relations between women and money..and followed by vague agreements by the others.
My point of view: Weyh,enough laa..Can we move on to the next topic plz?..

Was totally clueless when asked about what type of ring tht i prefer(gold/white gold/ruby/sapphire and their values on the market etc..)gheeez..they know this kinda stuf quite well.I went like,"I dont know anything abt diamonds"..and Alex went,"Ya laa..You don't have to worry abt a thing.Just wait for the guy to buy it for you.."
My point of view: Hahaha..yep,very true indeed..

Next, I was bombarded with more questions like, do you mind to support your husband financially after getting married, how much money I want to spend for my wedding banquet,money vs.the person in choosing spouse,how much money to spend on dowry,etc...yada..yada...yada..And being the only girl there during the meeting, I have to defend myself..

Conclusion: Pretty good outcome for an 8 o'clock meeting..
My point of view: Looking forward to the next session...And have to be prepared next time.Just in case if I am attacked again..

15 September 2004

meow-w...

Cunning, stealthy, and mysterious

Feline Fatale

A woman, a shadow, who can steal a man's eye and his imagination, maybe even his heart...if it's dark enough.

13 September 2004

s.a.n.g.a.t

Saye rase sangat lost.Ade 3 essay in row.Satu dah antar last friday.Satu antar tadi.Lagi satu Rabu nih.Yg kene antar Rabu nih,aderla sangat pening.Sangat abstract.Sangat psiko.Sebab dia aderlah subject Philosophy.Saye aderla sangat tak bersemangat skarang nih.Unmotivated.Nak makan pun malas.Tapi saye lapar.SANGAT lapar.Sangat exhausted jugak.Brain aderla sangat tak ter'stimulated'.Saye rase nak pegi makan jap lagi.Tapi aderlah sangat sedih sebab takde org nak teman.Sangat tak suke makan sorang2 dalam mase skarang yg sangat tak bersemangat.Sangat bosan la camnih.Sangat tak stabil.Sangat ntah pepe.Sangat tak betul.Sangat bongek.

10 September 2004

no diggity

If you guys watch Ten's Neighbours and it's your fave show(hoho..), then this might excite you.Neighbour's Harold Bishop is rumoured to release a rap single with the title "I am Not a Popstar"! Can you believe it?..I can't even bear the thought of good ol' Harold dressing up as a rapper(owh..very bling-bling).And what's with the title? Lame giler!!!!

harold bishop VS 50 cent

7 September 2004

Huda,

HAPPY BIRTHDAY TO YOU!

5 September 2004

H.O.M.E.S.I.C.K!!!

nak balik

nak pasar malam

nak naik Jaguh keliling Bolton

nak lepak kat kedai mamak

nak jumpe si comot nasha

nak tgk drama swasta

nak laksa johor

nak pegi Vincci beli kasut baru

nak masak ngan mak

nak buli Aiman

nak shopping ngan Itah

nak layan jokes ayah

nak balik!!!

31 August 2004

It has been a while since I last updated this gradually-losing-appeal blog.Naah! Amik sumer nih..Bace la puas2..

Aussie international Nite
Aussie International Nite was great.The dance went smoothly apart from a few bumps here and there.We were rushing to get our make-up and hair done.Plus the sampin(ke samping?) songket that proved to be quite a challenge to wear.Luckily,we managed to get ready and get there before time.I was sooo seriously nervous! Well,initially I wasn't that nervous but knowingthat many of our friends came to support us,cam gelabah sket.Hahaha..Thanks to Fariq,Bijan,Remy,Amar,Haris & Nadia,Man & Manis,Tupac & Shikin,Firdaus,Helmi,Laura and many others who were there last nite.Korang best!!! Everyone looked sooo groovy in their baju kurung and baju melayu.Siap ade additional sound effect lagi tuh in the middle of our performance..(meriah sihh..berjaye diverge attention audience so they'd look at the ppl yg buat sound effect instead of the dancers) THANKS HEAPS! And of course to Ili,Bahiah and Denise, you guys were great!! Eventhough we didnt practise that much but you guys managed to pull it off very very well.Cayaalah.. :) Well..other things that happened last nite,stayed there!! Hahaha..All in all, I had a great time, surrounded by my beloved friends and of course, good food (sort of laa)..

Bruneian Nite
It was the nite right after Aussie Nite. Cam hesitate gak at first whether nak pegi or tak.I know i was busy but then pujukan member2 telah berjaye buat aku pegi jugak.The nite turned out alrite.Luuuurve the dances! Very the urban and R&B-ish.I knew a few of the dancers back then when we had to perform for Merdeka Nite.Suke hatiku melihat si penari laki2 wearing pink stuff and dance to the upbeat urban tune!!Lalala~ During one of the songs,Penantian(Beinda), I went like, 'Whoa!' watching the guys bergelekan..Wakakaka..Getting in touch with their feminine side? Haha..Maybe kot..Pink shirts, gelek, flexible movements: these explains everything..After the nite ended, we took pictures around uni..Cam2 posing..Will put up the pictures later kayh..

Last weekend
Had 1 assignment due on Monday. Rushing to get it done.Cam org gler sihh..Sleep-deprived,hunger,anger,frustration,emotionally-depressed..Me and Aishah were practically running frm my place to the lab.This is all becauseof a house.We had to model a house.Yep, it's interesting but then the amount of patience required was seriously very very high.On Sunday, the comp lab was full.Sbb the next day nak kene submit. Everyone was so tensed,and every 15 minutes cam tuh, I could hear people cursing and shouting at the computer screens. Bongek tol lah software die..Stupid TUCAN! Anways, relieved coz managed to get it done and submitted successfully. I missed the River Festival though.Sangat sedih.Dahla bleh dengar the fireworks frm my place.Lagilaa tension.Last2, tgk kat tv jek..This is all because of TUCAN.Despise TUCAN all the way!!

AF Final
Akhirnye aku berjaye tgk konsert final.Yey! As expected, Zahid rawks! (u guys must be practically sick to hear this name but who cares!) Hahaha.."Milikku" was so urban-ish..Suited him so damn well..Don't understand why Adam could get the 3rd place.Sumbang maa..And sgt boyband-wannabe..Ooopss lupe,his idol kan KRU :P Farah should sing a better song than Avril Lavigne's Skater Boi.But she managed to sing it ok.As usual, suare Bob mmg mantap aah..Consistent tahap cipan..Tapi sayang tak dpt place pun.Maybe coz he didn't have the perfect package.Susahnye,highly talented but sayang, he didn't make it tht nite.Currently,I am addicted to Zahid's Milikku.Pagi,petang,siang dan malam lagu tuh je aku dgr..

25 August 2004

my current wishlist

1. everything will go smoothly for Aussie International Nite
2. learn to play the guitar and buy my own drumsticks
3. have my own baju melayu
4. watch The CAVALIERS perform
5. complete my house for Modelling & Visualisation
6. get used to Minds & Machines' abstract and intangible perspectives
7. have Nandos
8. ayah will be successful at his attempt to stop smoking

..::MILIKKU::..

memang berat bila dikira dengan kilo

cinta ku dipasang sehingga ke corong radio

apa yang ditenung, takku biarkan kau melolong

bocor kan ku tampung, tak ku biarkan kau melambung

ah cunnya cinta ku berikan

ah cunnya cinta mu kuterima

persetankan cinta buta ikut apa ku suka

jiwa karat tiada guna

ku cinta padamu

pengubat rindu

sayang untuk selamanya cintakan bersatu

milik hatimu

miliki cintamu

sayang untuk selamanya

ohh setahun masihkah ada lagi

ragumu terhadapku..

masihkah kamu menyangka ku mempermainkan kamu

lafaz cinta ku masih seperti waktu itumasih membara hangat lagi

seperti waktu dulu

bila bila bila

jauh darimu rinduku teramat bila kan kita bertemu

bila bila bila

jauh dariku terasa aura cintamu

memanggil namaku

ku korbankan segalanyauntuk mempertahankan...

mahligai kita yang dibina

selama pertemuan kita....

kan,kan,kan dah ku katakan

kau,kau,kau bersama aku

ops! anggukkan kepalaku tanda setuju

bila kau tanya aku

aku cintamu

kaulah yang ku lafazkan bicara dari kata-kata

bibir ke telinga tuju pasti ke hati

ah-ah! panah berdiri

ah-ah! bersemi

cinta di sini terperit cuma untuk bidadari

kamulah...

22 August 2004

Najwa adela dah seminggu tak minum coffee!!

19 August 2004

the day before yesterday - Stayed up to try finish my project. Miscommunication problem.One of my team member hantar interface lambt.So, nak tak nak terpaksa laa stay up abeskan everything.Finally,dozed off at around 5 in the morning.Next morning.Woke up.Went to uni to finalize all the documents.Later in the evening,learnt that major changes have been made to all the previous interfaces.Aaarrgghh!! Bongek giler!! What a waste of time and energy.Penat je stay up sampai bengkak2 mate,alih-alih tukar yg baru pulak..Kenelaa start all over again..

yesterday - Finally completed the interface doc.Hopefully there'll be no more changes after this.Penat dah nih.Malam ader UMNO meeting.Discuss abt the coming Merdeka Celebration.

today - 8 o'clock prac session is a 'great' way to start your day.Started my assignment for Modelling. Have to build a model house.Interesting.Sangat.But then, got to master the software with all the functions.Berjaye buat sampai pintu rumah.Yey!Still have other walls, windows and stairs to be completed. Jumpe Aishah kat lab.She asked me to go to the Hoobastank concert with her.His bro cancelled last minute.Nak main bola.Cancel concert nak main bola?Hrmm..Menarik.I kinda like Hoobastank. Will give her a call later tonite.

16 August 2004

thumbs up for a healthier lifestyle

I have made a vow that I want to experience the 'healthy feeling' in living my life. Therefore, I am taking the plunge to put myself through a one-week detox to try and get over the bad things I eat and drink. So,this week I will:

• stock up on more fruits and veges
• tone down my junks intake and loads of other crapz that I ate
• not consume any coffee throughout this week (this is going to be the hardest)
• drink a great deal of plain water
• stop binge-eating esp late at nite
• not miss any meal and have small frequent snacks (gotta keep the energy going)

Good luck NAJWA!

15 August 2004

Z.A.H.I.D

As you can guess just by looking at this entry's title, I am gonna babble on and on (bear with me..) about this guy who has just won the 2nd AF last Saturday.Hooray!!!

CONGRATULATIONS!!
You deserved it.Although it's a bit late tp nak cakap jugak.I wish i was there so that I could watch the whole event.Aarggh!!Sure sumer org nak muntah bace entry nih..hahaha...skali-skala takpe...kan,kan,kan?..Believe me if could vote for Zahid frm Brisbane, i would AFUNDI him over and over again...Sounds pathetic? Haha..Lantakla...

Why do I like him soo very much?He can sing,he can play the guitar and he can RAP(Zahid pun suke Usher jugak..yey!!) Not to mention that he's soo damned cheeky and fun to watch(nice2..)He was like, the center of attention and stole the thunder frm Bob when he rap in Alhamdulillah eventhough that was Bob's performance.Heard that he performed really2 well when he sang BEP's Where's The Luv..Aarrghh..Lagilaa nak tgk..Waiting anxiously for someone with the cd..Memang Zahid adela sgt layak menang.He is definitely a true star performer!!

12 August 2004

chaotic Thursday

In IT lab.Supposed to complete my VR prac.But the software went a bit berserk so I couldnt get my triangle-cube done.My PC at home,berserk takkan kat Lab pun same gak??Boh-ring..How can I get started with my assignment ya?..It's just one of those days where everything went out of control and almost nothing went right for me.

9 August 2004

stay away from me..shuh..shuh..

Have u guys ever met someone who's so insufferable that all you wanted to do is get away from him and prevent any circumstances that will make you two interact? Unfortunately,it happened to me this sem! This guy used to be my groupmate last year for one of my IT subjects.So,basically I know everything there is to know abt him before considering him to be by groupmate this sem(again!).

How do I describe him eih? I reckon he's a bit loud.If he sees me in the lecture hall,he'll go straight to sit next to me.Camnepun,die akan cube bersungguh2 spot aku.So,I'll either sit kat tmpt2 yg susah nak carik or sit in btw ppl so there'll be no empty seats next to me(Jahat sgt ke?Tak kan?).Setakat duduk tu takpe lagi,nih BISING pulak tu! Dah la tu woii..Tak faham ke tgh lecture,nak criter2,after class laa...And at that point of time, I could feel all eyes are on me and this tak-tau-malu guy.Nih baru kat dlm lecture hall, belum lagi mase practical, mase wat group project.God knows how I suffered throughout the semester last year.

Earlier this year, I didn't see him for the whole sem.Soo relieved!Thought this guy dah balik Hong Kong ke,tukar course ke ape ke..Turned out he was actually sick and now he's back to bug me! Aarrghh..!! Okla, I admit that sometimes I do feel guilty for loathing a person this much..Tapi tak pernah lagi marah or express my kebengangan directly depan die..Tak sampai hati laa..Tapi SANGAT tak suke die..Camne?

And this sem plak, he's trying VERY HARD to be in the same group as me! What's with this guy??? Stalker ke ape?Bersepah lagi Chinese dlm kelas tuh, gi la join diorang..Bukan laa kedekut ke,sombong ke tapi sbb dah pernah suffer 1 sem ngan mamat nih..Please laa...Leave me alone!

8 August 2004

phrase of the day

"May he, for whom you love Me, loves you" -- Abu Dawuud

tepat tak translation dia?
"Semoga dia yang menyebabkan engkau mengasihi-Ku, mengasihi mu jua"

5 August 2004

brain-freeze..brain-freeze..brain-freeze..And this is a good song...

She's got a smile that it seems to me
Reminds me of childhood memories
Where everything
Was as fresh as the bright blue sky
Now and then when I see her face
She takes me away to that special place
And if I stared too long I'd probably break down and cry
Sweet child o' mine
Sweet love of mine
She's got eyes of the bluest skies
As if they thought of rain I hate to look into those eyes
And see an ounce of pain
Her hair reminds me of a warm safe place
Where as a child I'd hide
And pray for the thunder
And the rain
To quietly pass me by
Sweet child o' mine Sweet love of mine
Where do we go
Where do we go now
Where do we go
Sweet child o' mine...

3 July 2004

miss u kiddo!!

n.a.s.h.a

30 July 2004
 
The importance of staying focused during lecture

One major idiotic thing happened to me yesterday.I accidentally erased all text messages in my mobile phone..Aarrgghh..!!!!Happened during a lecture yesterday. It was seriously boring with the whole data management thing, so I took my mobile out and started to play with it..Alih2, pressed the wrong button and Poof!! There goes all my messages.Gone! Free2 je.Tuhla..Padan muka sendiri..Saper suruh buat keje lain masa lecture.Mase lecture dengar and belajar,bukannye main handphone.Ended up terdelete all the important messages which I treasured so very much.I wish there's a function in the mobile that can retrieve all my messages back.....

28 July 2004
 
Himpunan gambar-gambar

Baru letak gambar2 hari tuh punye Melbourne trip. Dengan gambar2 mase birthday and gambar2 lain..Browse through la ye.. ::Pix::

26 July 2004 - late afternoon

Watched Pontianak Harum Sundal Malam last nite.A movie about supernatural power..Very spine-chilling and scary, I would say..One part that I will never forget was when the pontianak tu bertenggek kat palang rumah..., 2nd time pun same gak, when Datuk Marsani nak jumpe Maria, but it was actually the ghost who came to see him.. And pontianak tu bertengggek lagi sekali!!! I was like "Aaaarrgghh..!!", screaming on top of my lung. Terkejut seyy..And then, there were like,flashes of the pontianak images that will appear out of nowhere..Skali lagi, aku terkejut! I think my heart stopped beating for a few seconds..
Though it was not totally flawless but I reckon it was a good step forward for the Malaysian movie industry!

26 July 2004 - Here comes the update!

I know I've been neglecting my blog for quite some time.Sorry coz I just don't feel like writing.In addition to that, my plain boredom and unmotivated mind has lost its stimulation for a while.Now that I have quite recovered from lifelessness,I'll try to write some things that have been happening in my life during the past several days,when this blog has stopped its function in updating you people with my monotonous series of activities.

Since I got back from Melbourne for retail therapy, nothing interesting happened. A number of night-outs with my friends, movies, coffees, lunches and so on. Just plain,ordinary stuff any sane person would do.Speaking of movies, I've watched several new ones like The Whole 10 Yards, King Arthur plus some other old movies sush as From Hell, Dr.Strangelove (a really classic comedy,in which I didn't quite get the jokes), Bad Boys 1&2, Tomb Raider 2, Torque, Win a Date with Ted Hamilton,Legally Blonde 2,Bring It On, Love Actually, Bisikan Remaja(malu nak ngaku but I did watch this one and it was bloody dodgy!A person who watch this,is either plain bored or seriously damaged in the brain), Gila Bola, Buli(worth watching), Trauma, Paloh(very frustrating!), Laila Isabella, O.C series and many others. All these in less than a week,I guess it must be a seriously apathetic week for me.

While Huda,Baya and my housemate were gone, I was left alone feeling quite lost actually...So, I went to seek console from my loyal friends who were still in Brisbane. Many thanks to Nan who rented several dvds. Will watch the other 4 when I had the time coz ngantuk giler that nite..Thank u Nan!! And also to Sarah who accompanied me to watch those dvds together with Nan..And of course,to the others who have contributed their time towards saving me from being tortured by this boredom insanity.

I am so gonna change my blog layout. This one has just lost its appeal. Will try to find one which is more ingenious, charming and NOT brown. Probably something retro. Will get back to this later.

10 July 2004 - afternoon

I am lovin' it...

Sangat suke lagu ni!!

ACCIDENTALLY IN LOVE

So she said what's the problem baby
What's the problem I don't know
Well maybe I'm in love (love)
Think about it every time
I think about it
Can't stop thinking 'bout it

How much longer will it take to cure this
Just to cure it cause I can't ignore it if it's love (love)
Makes me wanna turn around and face me but I don't know nothing 'bout love

Come on, come on
Turn a little faster
Come on, come on
The world will follow after
Come on, come on
Cause everybody's after love

So I said I'm a snowball running
Running down into the spring that's coming all this love
Melting under blue skies
Belting out sunlight
Shimmering love

Well baby I surrender
To the strawberry ice cream
Never ever end of all this love
Well I didn't mean to do it
But there's no escaping your love

These lines of lightning
Mean we're never alone,
Never alone, no, no

Come on, Come on
Move a little closer
Come on, Come on
I want to hear you whisper
Come on, Come on
Settle down inside my love

Come on, come on
Jump a little higher
Come on, come on
If you feel a little lighter
Come on, come on
We were once
Upon a time in love

We're accidentally in love
Accidentally in love

Accidentally

I'm In Love, I'm in Love,
I'm in Love, I'm in Love,
I'm in Love, I'm in Love,
Accidentally

Come on, come on
Spin a little tighter
Come on, come on
And the world's a little brighter
Come on, come on
Just get yourself inside her love ...I'm in love

10 July 2004 - morning

winter break

Lamer giler tak blogging..TAKDE MOOD..Lagipun exam that day..After that,gie Melbourne plak..So,tak sempat..One week in Melbourne..

Main mission: SHOPPING! And my mission was successfully accomplished.Muahaha..Best giler! Banyak gak spend $$$ but happy..:)
And then jejalan kat St.Kilda, layan beach scenery..Mase jalan kat situh kan,trase cam kat O.C plak.. ~~ California...here we come ~~
Hahaha..Sempat berangan..I think that was the only scenery place that I went to..Pastuh, took pictures here and there..The rest of the days were spent shopping and more shopping..Dasar shopaholic!
Tak terfikir nak watpe for the rest of my winter break..Cam nak gi Surfer's Paradise lagi,tapi kene ajak reramai,baru best..So, anyone yg interested,holler ya!!

29 June 2004

SBP Orchestra Competition Results

Got this results from the alumni who went to watch this annual event that day (lupe tarikh) kat SDAR (tuan rumah).Saje nak announce to keep those yg terase ade kaitan updated.As usual, SSP among the top 3.Their field of expertise. Tapi STAR top 3 tuh yg tak tahan tuh...Whoa!!They did improve a lot from the last time that I saw them played.
Congratulations to STF band, eventhough dapat 6th place je and silver medal..Outdoor competition pun dah dekat..So, good luck jugak..I wish I could be there..Nways,all the best and SPIRIT, SOLID, SMART!

1) SEMSAH - strong

2) SSP - strong but no expression

3) STAR - some said, if we close our eyes, they sound like STF when we're with Sir.

4) SAS - ntah ape2. Distraction to watch 2 guys joget2 up there for nothing!

5) TKC - strong & confident though we heard clarinet & few others bunyi semacam

6) STF - dynamic but less expression then the day before

16 June 2004

Can people be emotionless?

The answer is YES! There are some people who seem outwardly calm or apathetic in situations where others will usually be emotionally charged. I came across this, I would like to call it a disease, which is called alexithymia. It is defined by psychologists as a symptom where people have severe difficulty in expressing their emotions and understanding emotions of others. People who suffer from alexithymia, rarely cry and often percieved by others as bland and cold. But what makes it more depressing is they are uncomfortable with their own feelings and unable to differentiate their own emotions. Meaning they can't understand the basic emotions that we normal people can feel like anger, sad or happy. Adding to the complication, they are at complete loss in understanding what others around them feel (pity them..)

So, if you are wondering why your friends are not as excited as you are when you told them stories that you thought exciting, it might be that your friends are suffering from this deadly disease or your stories are just plain drop-dead-boring....

14 June 2004

Good luck to those who are sitting for their exams!!

My first paper: 15 June - COMP3804 (2.30 p.m)

13 June 2004

Saturday's reflective review

Woke up with a good feeling but that died automatically realizing tht it's 2 more days before exam..Went to library at around 10.30 to, of course, study..Undeniably a condusive place to study and also encouraging for dozing off (serious tak sengaja)..
Then, went back at around 4.30 straight to Huda's place but unluckily she's not at home..So, I went back,feeling a bit down..Had dinner alone,housemate's not in..Sleepy and exhausted..Huda called and then a few min after tht, I went up..Had some ice-cream while watching the Rugby game btw All Blacks and England..36-3..It was obvious who sux tht nite!Camner tah leh jadi World Champion..
(Note to Baba: Beckham tak coach rugby England,die just a good friend to the captain..Haha!)

Nways, switched to Channel 9 to watch GG..Rory's looking good! And so does her mom..And then Huda had this crazy idea..So, I went down to fecth some stuff..Went up again,and we proceeded wif it..Muahaha..Giler!!Baba being a loyal observer, tgk dr jauh je..Heh..Sambung tgk tv for a while..Baba dah balik umah,she just couldnt bear 1 more second with us..Study sambil chatting wif Huda..Cakap pasal Adam(babe,only u know it!), nyanyi JANUARI..Pastuh tak thn ngantuk..Tido..With my make-up on...

8 June 2004

a tribute to ME!

Everyone, please visit Huda's blog.
She did one special poem for me!! Drop by tau..Wajib!!
I had tears in my eyes coz I was laughing soo hard..
But it was sweeet though..*Awwww*..(Seriously!)
Thanks babe...
You are the sweetest, most painless pain in my butt!!
Luv ya!

7 June 2004

project finale pt.1

Below is a picture of me and my groupmates for my IT project subject..Taken rite after our demonstration..I looked terribly awful...With those baggy under my eyes..As a result for not sleeping the nite before, trying to finish the project deliverable (this word's gonna haunt me for the rest of the semester)..From the front,left- Vandana, Me, Michael, Derek, Al and Alex..Hoping that all will go well...

6 June 2004

updates..

Typing like a mad woman trying to finish my last assignment for this semester (due this Mon!) Currently listening to sappy-slow-rythmn love songs (some are crappy though)..Muahaha!!Rasekan sumer org.. Just can't coordinate my thinking and typing while listening to gutsy rap and brash hip hop beats..Have you guys watched/heard of Pontianak Harum Sundal Malam? A malay movie which I reckon is GOOD! Eventhough havent had a chance to watch it yet..Planning to call my 'tokan' to send its CD frm Mesia..Browsed through its site(one of the best i think),and my level of anxiety to watch it just shoot up to level 9 by the time I finished viewing the trailer..Seram sey..Di I mention ade Rosyam Nor(A+) and Eizlan Yusof(A++++)? Heh..Mmmg sgt worthwhile utk tgk..

Disease tengkuk senget melanda lagi!! Lenguh aah..And aku cam rase kena pakai spek je after spending soooo much time in front of pc screen..Alamak..Nih yg tak best nih..
One more significant thing will be possibly added to my life besides the dreadful braces..Ni yang tak suke nih..

2 June 2004

After so many incompetent entries and rubbish thoughts,I reckon I should put up something that can be pondered on.So,here goes...

Di mana letak kecantikan seorang muslimah?

Mungkin pada sepasang matanya yang bening yang selalu mengerling tajam, atau yang kadangkala malu-malu manja,
Boleh jadi pada bibirnya yang tak jemu-jemu menguntum senyuman manis, atau yang sesekali memberikan kucupan mesra di dahi bunda,ayah,suami dan pipi mungil anak-anak,
Mungkin juga pada derai tawanya yang gemersik dan suara manjanya yang lembut sekaligus melembutkan perasaan,

Panjatkan syukur kehadrat Allah SWT kerana telah menganugerahkan keindahan-keindahan itu,
Namun, betapa pun dijaga, dipelihara, dibelai dan ditatap dihadapan cermin saban waktu, Akan tiba masanya segalanya berlalu jua,
Wajah akan suram, mata akan kelam...


And this beautiful masterpiece is of course not done by me..Thanks to ||tudungpurple||

And has anyone listened to siti nurhaliza's new song "Dialah Dihati" ? I reckon it's a good song (coming from someone who's not an avid fan of siti,kire best laa lagu nih)..Probably the rythm,melody and stuff..Just can't get this song out of my head..HELP!