Wednesday, November 09, 2005

blog updated finally - celebrations

aidilfitri yang mulia
Some celebrated raya on Thursday.Some,on Friday.I celebrated on the latter day. So, pagi raya went for semayang raya at Guyatt Park.Gloomy weather.But it was good coz takde la panas cam last year.Sembahyang raya went pretty well until it came to khutbah time.Suddenly,heavy downpour.Kemut sumer orang trying to find shelter.Anyways,raya tetap raya.So,had makn-makan afterwards and of course, sessi bergambar (acara wajib). Plenty of food.Variety! Some friends went to open houses afterwards.Me? Went home directly after that to study.Sigh.Terpaksa.Had 2 exams on Saturday.
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salam-salam pagi raya



the day i celebrated my independence day
how did i celebrate? Answer: WINDOW-SHOPPING!!
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1- commencing the journey for the day.Yeay!! Scanning the scene, trying to decide where to go first.

2- Decision made. First stop: Valley Girl!

3 - Browsing around.Nothing interesting to satisfy the bargain-hunter's needs.

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4- Spotted something that i really really like.REALLY REALLY like.

5- Next stop: Myer.Myer is always full of cool and nice-to-look-at shoes. rmk collection is no exception.

6- More shoe stops. Really like the ankle-strap with dangling beads heels.Chanteeekk!!

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7- Many more stops to make! Keep on walking.Where to next?

8- This is one more thing that never failed to make happy by just looking at them (besides shoes)

9- More cute accessories. Hoh.Sedap dipandang mata..

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10- Takde keje saje saje.Took a self pic in a mirror.

11- On a citycat, heading back home.Exhausted but happy :)

The end

Tuesday, November 01, 2005

yeay-i-am-done-with-my-Honours-project-for-good

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Spicy and me.And thats my demo poster on the left..

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and that is the-much-talked-about Lazaros Kastanis, my suprevisor

I would like to thank Laz, the greatest supervisor one can have for his contributions to the success of this Honours project and for making this arduous year a fulfilling and memorable experience. Thank you very much for your much appreciated knowledge, guidance, encouragement, feedback, patience and enthusiasm for pushing boundaries as well as for the most mentally stimulating meetings I have ever had..Muchas gracias!

Anyways, nak cakap sket pasal keikhlasan membuat sesuatu perkara.Kadang-kadang susah betul nak rasa ikhlas buat something tuh.Sometimes, eventhough dah cuba mengikhlas kan hati tapi ada juga this one tiny,nagging voice inside your head yang mengharapkan balasan.Mungkin kita rasa apa yang kita buat memang sepatutnya dibalas balik secara baik. Tu yang dah jadi tak ihkhlas kan.Memang bagus jadi orang yang ikhlas ni sebab kita takkan meletakkan harapan menggunung untuk the other party to do the same thing in return.Because when we hope for them to do the same thing that we did for them,and in the end it turned out that they didnt even give a damn about the effort that we have put in, we would feel frustrated, deeply furious or disappointed.And bila kita ihklas, kita tak takut nak all out buat something regardless of whether we get something in return or not. Banyak sangat contoh pasal ikhlas tak ikhlas membuat sesuatu nih.

Macam, group assignment kan. X nih rajin orangnya tapi dia tak contribute all out untuk siapkan assignment sebab dia tgk groupmate dia yang lain tak bersungguh-sungguh langsung.Dia fikir, kalau dia contribute all out pun buat apa kalau dia sorang je yang kena bertungkus-lumus and the others macam mengharapkan dia sorang.Dia pun rasa lagi,kalau dia tgk orang lain beriya-iya baru la dia akan contribute betul2.Mungkin juga groupmates dia yang lain tuh ada masalah yang tersendiri menyebabkan mereka-mereka itu tidak dapat menyumbangkan usaha sama rata.But then,this is another issue.Kalau X tu ikhlas mungkin dia akan cuba juga contribute for the sake of the team and at the same time cuba menasihatkan rakan-rakan dia yg lain supaya turut berusaha jugak.Kiranya, X takkan berkira sangat lah kan berapa banyak yang dia kena buat untuk siapkan kerja tu.

Hrmm..Macam x relevant la pulak. Alaaa.. Banyak laa contoh-contoh kecil yang lain.Macam kalau kita bagi orang hadiah masa birthday mereka. Kalau kita ikhlas,sure kita tak frust bila kita tak dapat apa-apa pun dr mereka time birthday kita.Tapi, kalau ada sedikit perasaan mengharapkan balasan sebab tak ikhlas,memang la kita akan rasa buang masa je bagi hadiah haritu or maybe sedikit sedih dan kecewa kerana terasa mereka tidak ingat kat kita.

Or bila kita sanggup menjadi pendengar setia kepada masalah2 Y.Tapi bila giliran kita ada masalah,Y tidak memberikan respons yang sepatutnya.Mungkin juga Y bukan jenis orang yang mendengar dan tidak tahu bagaimana hendak menenangkan orang yang sedang bermasalah. Yela.Tak semua orang boleh buat benda yg sama.Jika kita ikhlas mendengar masalah2 Y, mungkin kita tidak akan merasa bahawa Y ni seorang yg tidak tahu mengenang budi kerana niat kita ikhlas hendak menolong Y menyelesaikan masalah/menenangkan dia.

Tapi kadang-kadang bukanla kita nak sangat pun balasan yang setimpal atas kebaikan yang kita dah buat.Tak semestinya kita nak orang bagi hadiah kat kita balik masa birthday kita or tak semestinya kita nak Y betul-betul into our problem kita and cuba selesaikan.And tak semestinya X nak groupmates dia yg lain buat contribute macam dia because cara org berkerja mmg tak sama.And tahap kehebatan/kepandaian pun lain-lain.Takleh laa nak expect semua orang hebat-hebat dan pandai-pandai belaka. Cuma, kita nak dihargai atas apa yang kita dah buat.APPRECIATION and ACKNOWLEDGEMENT. Cukupla dengan wish birthday je ke.And tak perlu cuba come up ngan solutions pun.Cukup sekadar mendengar,bersimpati dan tidak judgemental.Orang tgh bermasalah kan,jangan la menambah kan lagi beban dia.And also, groupmates tu cakap la thanks ke or tunjukla appreciation sikit kat X.

Kita kadang-kadang lupa untuk menghargai pengorbanan ataupun kebaikan orang lain.Mungkin kita appreciate tapi kita tak tunjuk sebbab kita appreciate/acknowledge dalam hati (boleh ke?). Tapi bila kita tak tunjuk macamana la the other party tu tau kan?.. Dah kita rasa down or underappreciated. Bila dah macam ni, secara tak langsung kita akan rasa discouraged utk terus melakukan kebaikan atau perkara-perkara yg sepatutnya kepada pihak-pihak yg tertentu.

Oleh itu kita harus ikhlas membuat sesuatu dan appreciate and acknowledge laa orang-orang sekeliling yang rasa-rasa dah banyak buat baik pada kita.Sementara masih ada masa.Bila dah takde nanti,haa...barula nak meyesalkan...

SEKIAN

(this is such a length entry.But if u managed to read until this point,anda telah berjaya mendengar luahan perasaan saya dan saya sangat berterima kasih atas usaha anda itu!)

Thursday, October 27, 2005

happy ending

my demo went well. everyone looked happy.satisfied smiles on their faces as their project demo went really really good.there was this feeling of eagerness in the air since 8 am this morning. everyone seemed so enthusiastic to show the outcomes of working hard for the past 2 semesters.that included me as well la kan. seronok semacam. nervous tu nervous jugak.how can you not be nervous when all the important people in the industry came to see you 'selling' your project and bombarded u with all sorts of questions afterwards.well.. the industry ppl tht I feared the most the nite before turned out to be not as scary as I thought. they were lenient. alih-alih other UQ academics(merangkumi supervisors of other students) pulak yg turned out to be sooo demanding and hard to please. I got all these challenging questions from this one particular guy yg keep asking me stuff trying to make my project looked insignificant and not challenging at all. Helloooo... kalau tak susah, takde laa sampai ade dalam list Honours project kan? Duh! But I managed to answer him after all. Baru tau. Hmph!! Anyways, sangat la penat.Talking almost non-stop like a mad parrot since 9 am sampai 4.00 pm.Super-duper xhausted.Energy level = 0. Had the feeling tht Im gonna miss terawikh at musolla tonite.Huhuhu.. Will put up todays's piccies of the demo tomorrow...

Tuesday, October 25, 2005

Greys anatomy

I like watching Greys Anatomy.I have never liked watching any doctor-ish tv series.But this one is an exception. Its like watching The O.C on a hospital set.Theres soo much dramas going on: the conflicts, affairs, relationship problems, life struggle etc etc while at the same time trying to save a patients life.. Cant wait to see where the friendship between Izie and Alex will lead to :)
Anyways, this next info is irrelevant to todays entry:

Currently on heavy rotation:
Some kind of wonderful - Joss Stone
Less is more - Joss Stone
Spoiled - Joss Stone
My completeness - Thirsty Merc
Salvame - RBD (a Spanish song)
Cinta - Flop Poppy
Segitiga - Cokelat
Super duper love - Joss Stone (again...)

Gonna have a long and tiring day today.
Have a good Tuesday everyone!

Saturday, October 22, 2005

lalalala

uninspired ..
facing a major writer's block..well im not exactly tht kinda writer.. just an insigfinicant writer of my own thesis. it requires time, concentration and peace to write beautifully.. i mean for my thesis, of course..to write crap, anytime also caaan.. when you have sufficient time, you can put yourself in deep thought, keep yourself calm and focus more and pinpoint even the tiny little flaws that are not visible before this.. tinggal conclusion je....conclusionnnnn jee...please laaa.....

anyhoouu..had iftar at the musolla today. It was a fiesta of good food.Seriously.As the iftar was organized by MSAUQ sisters,so,most of the food,I think,was of middle east cuisine.Fave dish would be the lagsania.Super rich with fresh meat, veges and top off with a very creamy cheese layer.Sedap, mantap mengamuks! Other dishes were equally good as well.Didnt know their names.Tapi mmg sedap.Most of them had meat in it.The pasta, the Turkish wrap,the homemade pizzas,the gulai (yg nih mmg tak tau ape name die) and even the bread had it.I dont even like to eat read meat.But I allow myself for an exception today.And yeah,right now Im feeling slightly meat-ish.And oh,Pinna Cotta(did I get the spelling right?) yang Nadia jual kat pasar ramadhan tuh sedap aah..Yum!
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mr sun is finally here..
:)

Thursday, October 20, 2005

jauh di mata dekat di hati

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they said absence makes the heart goes fonder..
oo really..??
well in your case Anina,SANGATLAH BETUL!!! haha.. (dammit,I have to admit that I actually miss you. Quoted somewhere in Mid-Jan, 2005, Petrosains :"Alaaa..Tak cool la kene ngaku miss miss orang nih"..I know Iknow..I take that back)
Your absence definitely makes my heart goes fonder!! (Cheewaah..I bet if u read this,memang dah gelak berguling-guling)
See,how strong your impact on me? (Isyh..isyh..Baaaad Anina)
Out of the blue,I was reminded of your 'Kegilaan'. Hehehe..
No one could sing that T-rex (this is the huge dinasour statue in Petrosains) song tuh hari-hari kat Petrosains plus the act as well..Cam dinaso!!! ("Hey kawan-kawan..Selamat dtg ke dunia ku...lalala..")
Or the time when we were caught red-handed dancing a.k.a berlakon buat video clip Relaku Pujuk on the surveillance camera in Discovery Station..
Or the time we were so immersed in updating with each other's gossips as if we have entered a different world (hoo..tak tipu..bercerite ngan makcik nih mmg tak ingat sekeliling dah..Gossip-monger!! )

Anyways Miss Anina, I would like to wish you a very happy belated 2xth birthday! May God bless you always..

Wednesday, October 19, 2005

there, there Najwa..shhh...

When you cannot find solace in things that usually cheer you up,
When you fail to get the encouragement that you need to motivate you ,
The best you can do is to find the strength in you by whatever means and keep going..

Bulan puasa ni banyak-banyak kan la amal ye Najwa. Semoga ditenangkan hati dan dikuatkan kesabaran...Aminn..
Takde pekdah nye rase down and complain-complain nih..

Monday, October 17, 2005

super duper love

Yeh are you diggin on me
Yeh yeh yeh
Im diggin on u now baby
Yeh do u wanna little bit of my love
Yeh wait a minute wait a minute

All the time i knew that you loved me
Because you were always there
Could i be that mistaken
Believing that you really care

In the presence of all my friends
You stood there holding my hand
And you promise me faithfully
That you will be my only man

Yeh are you diggin on me
Yeh yeh yeh
Im diggin on u now baby
Yeh do u wanna little bit of my love
Yeh wait a minute wait a minute

Everytime i walk down the street with you
Im as proud as a girl can be
Just to know that u r mine

In the presence of all my friends
You stood there holding my hand
And you promise me faithfully
That you will be my only man

Yeh are you diggin on me
Yeh yeh yeh
Im diggin on u now baby
Yeh do u wanna little bit of my love
Yeh wait a minute your love is super oh baby
See im trying to tell you
Your love is super duper
Super yes it is yes it is

Your love is
Your love is super
Are you diggin on me coz im diggin on you
Im just trying to tell you
Oh this love is super duper
Wait a minute
And all that good loving belongs to me

***
yeh yeh..im diggin on Joss Stone.
and yeh yeh..im super duper mentally exhausted..

(oi , are you diggin on me?)

Thursday, October 13, 2005

because im a strong girl

motivator(s)


  • 90% for TMAN 3001 Virotec essay
  • 90% for Advanced Human Computer Interaction seminar (talking about bridges can be fun and satisfying..in a way)
  • good progress in statistical analysis on SPSS (I soooo owe you Mark! Thanks zillionss..)
  • managed to pull off the HCI progress report in the most effective way possible (Thanks for sticking with me all day long for 3 consecutive days)
  • got an email saying: "calm down...buat keje slow2....insyallah boleh nye........ingattt!!!!!!!!!!!be strong...cz i know u are!!!! " (in the exact copy and paste form)Yeahh..I know..simple words je..But then in times like these (time aku tgh bengong), they are really really helpful.
  • my supervisors amazement at my in-depth knowledge on statistical analysis (Lazaros..your da man!! ahahaha..)

Major demotivator(s):

  • Could not go back to sleep after unintentionally waking up at 6 this morning. Slept at nearly 4. memangla tak cukup tido..Nyesal giler bangun.. Nyesal.Nyesal.Nyesal.Takde pekdah langsung.Lagi bertambah cranky ade laa..
  • Yesterday i was all cranky. Mission to find a goddamn good listener to listen me,yapping on and on about how tragic my day was not accomplished. Ended up calling a dear friend of mine at a very odd hour.Eventhough your so far away but thanks giler aah! (Kau la satu-satunye harapan time time-time camnih)
  • Still couldnt get the Metamodel concept into my head
  • Mom suddenly had quite a serious bleeding from the previous accident.I was really overcome with panic and fear. Takut giler.Serious..(That explains why I was all cranky yesterday)
  • I am still cranky today :(

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I want to be happy cam kat atas tuh..

Wednesday, October 12, 2005

whining part I

Cam nak ternangis sebab penat sangat berlari ke sana sini hari ni kat uni (waah..they rhyme!)under the very hot hot sun.Plus,tak reti nak buat assignment Metamodel.Groupmate pon clueless.Went to see Bob Colomb for consultation.Funny thing is I could understand what he was saying during consultation time BUT when tried to map out the metamodel tak boleh laa pulak.I think I got the concept right..ke aku terdistract tgk his white beard yg sgt byk tuh sampai ter mis understand..Isk isk.. Pastuh sakit belakang semacam.Cam org tua la pulak sakit tulang.Aku perlukan whole body massage! Argghhhhh..Bengong + bongek laa camnih.. Ni yang homesick nih..

Thursday, October 06, 2005

fariq otai

happy birthday dude!

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p/s: tetibe terpanggil nak buat entry utk kau sementara hari nih tak habes lagi..hehe..many happy returns!!

Monday, September 19, 2005

unsettled najwa

i have been thinking about some things a lot lately. the thinking didnt took me far. not even the simplest solution. there is a simple way out but... benci nyer!! why laa i wasnt being smart enough to know what i want in the first place? want vs. need. do i know what i really want? kot.. but i dont want what i actually need. but after i got what i want, do i really need it? does it matter? again, typing this issue had already given me a terrible headache. i realized that i am at my most disorganized stage. unmotivated. unsettled. edgy. down. its not the pms. this brings me to the next roadblock. how in the world am i gonna complete the testing? stupid project!
really really not looking forward to going to Sydney this coming holiday. tapi dah bayar... wasnt even planning to go pun initially but then, decided to go at the very last minute.But now, dont feel like going at all.. very very very unsettled najwa indeed.
N.R

The day I got my initials on a necklace:

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N: Najwa
R: err..Raduan..?? Hehe..


General knowledge for the day:
  • 'cuci mata' = looking at the menu but not ordering.Something like, "Tengok boleh, pegang jangan". Geddit?
  • Gimme an E for effort. Repeat after me e-f-f-o-r-t, EFFORT!!
  • Untidy is great but dirty is uurrghhh..
  • Marty Casey (the guy from RockStar:INXS show) is sexy. Nyiahaha.. Please download/listen to Trees and you will know why.
  • PMS is not nearly as bad as everyone says. When your warned in advanced by your girlfriend,you must surely know to:
  1. Cut her a bit of slack
  2. Be extra attentive (I mean, EXTRA with a capital E..)
  3. Go out

Friday, September 16, 2005

what happened in the past few weeks?

Merdeka nite
Held at UQ. Good performances, okay food, people dressing up = good fun!
"Zapin Zafana" was the dance. Good commitment and the spirit were high that night. Sampai terlucut sampin, ye Wan Sham..Hehe.. Lurveeeee the band! Gambar later!

dreamworld - goldcoast trip
Dreamworld is my favourite theme park among the other parks. Probably because I am not scared of heights or speed and I have strong stomach. Hehe.. Even though it was drizzling that day, we still had fun. Dropped by Surfers Paradise after that just to lepak and breathe in the beautiful scenery di kala mendung and took some piccies. Went to this 1 shop and saw some very cool models of mini cars and bikes. If I had enuff money tht time, memang laa dah lame beli that Ducati.

Presentation
Had one on Thursday. Nervous gila ba** before my turn came. Pelik. Cam laa tak pernah buat before nih. Padahal presentation biase je. Thesis nyer presentation pon lagi besar than this one tapi leh lepak plak. Luckily, my groupmate, Tom sedaya-upaye menenangkan aku yang maybe nampak huru-hara time tuh. Asked me to take a walk with him and made some small talks in order to make me feel at ease. Thanks, dude!

Girls nite in (ok ok,plus the guys as well)
Went to watch Charlie and the Chocolate Factory. Ramai-ramai. Was planning to sleep over at Nadiyas after that. Yela.. Kite merancang tuhan je yg menentukan.. Girls nite in ape nye. Last-last everyone ter lepak kat umah Nadiya. Main yg tulis-tulis kat kertas name org-perbuatan-anggota badan-name orang.. Haha.. Yes, I know it does sound silly. Tapi sumer org layan giler! Pastuh, main mafia-mafia lak. Seronok! This is my favourite "board game"! And then sambung lak citer hantu. Mule la sumer org rase cuak kan.. We were so into the game and seronok sangat that we didnt realized that hari dah terang kat luar..

Musim orang balik Malaysia
Lepas satu, satu orang balik. Ape nih? Why? Whyyyyy?? Memule Bahiah, and then Remi, pastuh Rabbit, Bijan lak and K.Fidah pon nak balik bersalin.. Yela, yela.. Gie la balik sumer orang.. Tinggal kan laa aku sorang-sorang kat sini.

Anyways, here is a picture which is totally irrelevant to my entry today. Reminded me so much of those sweet ol' times when we really had fun.

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(l-r: me, kimah and huda)

Tuesday, September 13, 2005

my teeth and I

I browsed through some pictures just now.Pictures of me, me and my friends, me and you dll..Browsing through pictures is officially my favourite pastime at the moment!As if I got nothing better to do.But then, since that is the only thing that I can do to actually get on with my life peacefully.Buat je laa.Anyways,I noticed sumting while looking at the pictures.In one of the pictures where I had this wide grin onmy face,I noticed that I actually had a quite nice set of teeth.Straight and organized.Perasankah saye? Selamberr...I dont give a damn!!Miahahaha..Thanks to those 4 torturing years of wearing braces.Seb baik paid off..I hate it when I had the braces on.Cam geek!The only thing that keep me going was when I got the chance to choose the colourful rubber to be put on my teeth.Pink, Hijau,Baby blue, warna-warna pelangi..Excited semacam! Haha..Tapi doktor India tuh dengki doh.Sumtimes I dont get the coloured ones.He just gave me the plain ones (warna getah) instead.Dengki!!Dulu,I hated to smile because of the stupid braces.Conscious semacam.Nak tgk gamba2 mase ade braces dulu pon tak lalu.HUDUH!! But now,I can smile from ear to ear.Muahaha..Tunjuk sket hasil 4 thn pakai braces tuh.Hihihi..Tak best doh pakai braces.Nak makan susah.Kene selalu gosok gigi.Takleh makan chewing gum or sugus.Takleh gigit apple directly, kene potong dulu.Takleh makan mende-mende keras.Dahla banyak pantang makan.Selalu kene ulcer mulut lak tuh pasal besi.Tapi I didnt obey all the freaking rules laa kan.Ade sekali tuh braces tercabut sbb kunyah Sugus.Wahaha..Panic for a few minutes.Seb baik ok je pastuh.Tapi kene bebel ngan dentist India tuh (oo..Now I know why didnt get the colourful rubbers)..Esok-esok biler ade anak sendri,and if they have to put on the braces,make sure pakai mase kecik2.Dont be like me.Pakai after high school.And then continue mase kat kolej and uni.Tak best doh!

Friday, September 09, 2005

aaaaaaaarrrrrrrrrrrrrrrggggggggghh...!!!!!!! part II


just a few hours left before 11.50 pm.

*sob*

Wednesday, September 07, 2005

crucial to-do-list

  • trust my heart
  • have faith in myself
  • have faith in other things that matter so much

As for now, nope, I cant do any of these.
I just hope I can, so that I can stop blabbering, crying before I go to sleep and get on with my life in peace.

Sunday, September 04, 2005

i like you

I like you.
I like you a whole lot.
I like you because
When something matters to me,
It matters to you, too.
When you have a good idea,

You tell me first
When I do, I tell you first.
Thats why we make such a great team.

I like you because
When I say something funny, you laugh,
And when Im not my usual self,
You notice right away
And ask me, "Whats wrong?"

You are there for me and Im there for you.
Thats what friends are for.

I like you because - I just do.
When somebody asks me who my best friend is,

I say, "You." And you say, "Me."
And fifty years from now,

We will ll say the same thing.

Thats the way it is and will always be
You can count on it!

I gave this to a dear friend of mine once.
Hey, I really meant it tau. Every single word. You know I am never ever good at saying stuff. For some reasons, I felt that words that usually came out from my mouth are always wrong. They are either spoken at the wrong time, just plain inappropriate, or worse, both. (I sounded quite mean sometimes especially bab nak luah-luah prasan tak best nih).

That is why I always wish that I can be a good conversationalist who will always know what to say. More importantly, being able to express what I think and how I feel in an effective way. Ntah ape problem nye, taktau ah. Nak cakap tak cukup education utk bercakap, mmg tak logic laa kan. Tension tau tak jadik org yg susah nak cakap nih. That is why I need people who can always encourage me to say things that are buried deep in my mind and heart. Bukan susah pun. Alaa.. Macam belajar reflective listening and body language. All those communication skills that you can practice to show that you are really listening to what the other person is saying and show how open and supportive you are towards the other person.

Haa tengok dah menyimpang jauh dah nih. Well, back to the poem above. Yes, I meant it when I gave it to you and I still mean it now. Up to now, you are the only person that I think fit all the description above. Some people just dont get what I said. Funny things lagi laa. You made me feel much appreciated. And thanks for that.

I felt like such a bum for not being able to be there yesterday to celebrate. I know I should. I really hope you had a great time. Being surrounded by good friends AND good food (I earned a bit of credits for that tiramisu!Hehe..)

I just did not expect that your birthday will be celebrated earlier. Because I was planning to do something special for you on your birthday. You know how I like doing all the sweet surprises. Hehe.. Rase amat satisfied melihat orang gembire kerana mendapat kejutan kejutan yang membahagiakan.

What you said a while ago, "Kawan menangis susah nak cari and kawan ketawa senang nak jumpe." Or something like that. I just hope that I am still both. Even though I know that we rarely see and talk to each other due to commitments and stuff but hey, I am always here if you ever need someone to listen to you.

I even feel a bit 'sebak' while writing this. It might be the pms. I do not know for sure. My life is an emotional roller-coaster these past few weeks.

Well, happy birthday and thanks for being you.

Friday, September 02, 2005

serious panic attack

TETIBE GILER RASE TAK SEDAP HATI!!!!!!





get what I mean? Tak sedap, tak sedaaaaap..!!!
HELP!