31 May 2004

one year older,one year wiser

It has been more than a week I didn't spill out my thoughts..Busy maa..Well,a lot happened within that period of time.I'll start with my birthday hangout kay..
I turned 21 last Saturday..How time flies..Cepat gell..Me and Luqzan had a double birthday celebration that Saturday nite coz his bday was on the 30th..It was great!..Actually,it was a Late-Night-Joint-Venture-Birthday-Supper..Kinda last minute thing..Initially,I didn't plan for anything but Luqzan la,bersungguh2 nak wat double-bday-party..Hehe..But luckily I agreed..Best!Dalam kesibukan yg ongoing,the chance to hang with everybody else was really worthwhile..Bukan senang nak jumpe diorang nih eventhough umah seblah-nyeblah je..Thanks to Luqzan because you did everything!I owe you one..Thanks to all the Crommies and Campus Lodgies(is there any such word?)..You guys could still make it and some even stayed until quite late eventhough the next morning kite ade qiam..Tenkiu!!

I won't forget the moment when I cut the bday cake..The cake was good but the guys aderla noh-tie..Took advantage on me and bombarded me with all sorts of questions!:p Tapi takpelakan,kasi can aah..Gile conscious and segan mase tuh..Muahaha..Thanks again for the presents..And to those who still remember that Najwa still exists on this planet and gave me a call to wish me 'HAPPY bIRTHDAY',pun thanks heaps!It's the thought that counts,aight?..:) All in all,I had a good time,amidst the assignments and the dreaded approaching finals..

My birthday wishes? Hmmm..A lot! Here are some which can be shared (yg lelain tuh,better keep 'em to myself!)..Well,just hoping that I'll survive despite the challenging,stressful chores and praying that I'll be a MUCH better person and find whatever it is that I am looking for..

23 May 2004

Just a little reminder to myself...

We tell lies when we are afraid,
Afraid of what we don't know,
Afraid of what others will think,
Afraid of what will be found out about us,
But every time we tell a lie, the thing we fear grows stronger,
Life is all about risks and it requires you to jump.
Don't be a person who has to look back and wonder what they would have done, or could have had...

21 May 2004

Sabtu yg 'indah'..

sakit tengkuk
sengal bahu
pedih mata
mengantuk
otak letih
buntu
stuck
brain-freeze
sleep deprivation
nak tgk movie
nak shopping
nak makan makanan selain yg ade dlm vending machine
nak tido yg cukup
nak siapkan assignment
tapi..
*sigh*
ntahlaa....
buhsannye camnih...huwaaa!!!

21 May 2004

Once upon a time when I was a bandgirl...

Tetibe aku tringat band and trase nak cakap pasal band mase aku Form One dolu2..So,bear wif me eih...

Mase tuh band camp zaman skola dolu2..Biaselaa kan senior band garang tahap mak enon punye..Esp percussonist..Kalau tak hafal lagu or drum roll memang dah sah2 kene lari netball court sambil junjung snare drum..Pastuh sure diorang tanye penat ke tak,kalau jawap penat,confirm aah kene tambah lagi 2-3 round lari..Kalau jawap tak penat pun kene lari extra gak..So,kesimpulannye same je..Paling minimum pun,sure kena ketuk-ketampi junjung snare drum yg sangatlaa berat..(Sebab tuh la agaknye proses peninggian aku terbantut kot..)Junjung-menjunjung nih memang wajib..Menggigil sey tgn after that..Geram tuh aderla gak kan,tapi sebab time tuh tak terer lagik kan,so takleh nak cakap ape2..

Tapi ader this one time,sumer Form One kene main marching songs sbb Form Five nak dengar..I still remember the nite before the 'big day',sumer bandgirls form one,mmg berhempas-pulas nak menghafal lagu2 tuh...Yg drummers nih (cam aku) mmg bising aah sbb dok ketuk meja kat kelas ngan drumsticks trying very hard to memorize every freaking drum roll and song yg ade..Memang lekuk aah meja..Kesan ketukan padu..Naseb baik classmates memahami..Buat2 pekak je eventhough aku tahu mmg bising gile...(Thank u korang!)

The next day,mmg kecut perut aah...Dahla kena berbaris kat depan..And then,form Five tuh plak berlegar2 sekeliling kitorang,konon2 nye garang la tuh...Tapi mmg garang pun..Kitorang pun start laa main lagu2 tuh..After habis each song,mmg ader je la budak yg kene denda sbb tak perfect...Tapi part paling best aderla bile sumer percussionist form one tak kene apepe..Yey!! Sebabnye kitorang hafal sumer!! Muahaha..Memang sronok + bangga sbb Yuzi takleh nak cakap apepe..Heh..Still remember the look on her face..Rasekan!

Tapi lame2 tuh diorang okay..Meaning,garang bertempat laa..Dah buleh laa nak betegur sape tp tak sampai tahap bertepuk-tampar..Garang2 diorang tuh,but they were the best...Aku still ingat prasan secure each time wat peformance kat memane sbb aku tau diorang ade..Rasenye sbb technically,mmg diorang hebat aah...Mase tuh terfikir gak,bilela aku leh jadik terer camtuh..Sbb my left hand was a bit weak..Kalau main,mmg trase tak balance aah..Pastuh plak nak coordinate hand movement mase main sambil marching..Lagi seksa..Dahla berat,mmg terbayak2 aah..Mule2 memang giler kekok..Tapi bile dah lame2,okay la..Looking back at those times,takla susah sgt pun..The process of adaptation tuh yg susah sket..Once u get used to it,everything'll be ok..

Pejam celik,dah lime thn jadik bandgirl..Cepat giler..Banyakla bende aku blaja dr band nih..Bukan setakat,main muzik je,byk lagi bende lain..Teamwork,Respect,'Survival skill',Bersatu-padu,Disiplin,Time managemant,Ilmu alam(serius nih,sbb byk travel kot) and the list goes on...Orang sure tak faham sgt aah bile aku criter pjg lebar camnih..Sorila if korang tak faham eh..

Tapi skarang dah lain aah band..Tak cam dulu lagik..Makin 'tenggelam'..Juniors pun makin manja..Last year,mase aku balik Mesia,gi jap jenguk2 band..Biler dengar diorang main,dpt notice the difference..Tak semasyuk dulu..Hrmm...Quite sad actually..Maybe because dah tukar admin,band pun cam tak terjage sangat..Sayang giler..Hopefully,diorang bley bounce back one day...Apepun,heard you guys will be having a competition/orchestra this year..All the best to all bandgirls!

"SPIRIT,SOLID,SMART"!

19 May 2004

Engineers are the BEST boyfriends..(oh,really?)

An amusing article(I think) that I got from a friend.Basically it evaluates why girls should eventually marry an engineer over a Law, Management, Arts or Medical School Graduate. He has three distinct advantages over the rest of the graduates.

"Advantage 1: Secure lifestyle
An engineer boyfriend can provide you with a secure lifestyle. At 27 years old, an engineer probably has a respectable, stable job that gives him a high income to own a car, invest, have a comfortable life, and get married and buy a house too. Law graduates are still working as a lowly apprentice in a law firm, most management graduates have just failed on their first business plan, the arts graduate is still looking for a job, and the medical school graduate is still living in a hospital..

Advantage 2: Unmatchable industriousness
An engineer boyfriend will dedicate an unimaginable amount of his time and effort to understand you. Engineers are trained really really hard to understand their work. You can believe that they will try really really hard to understand women too, just like how they understand their work, once they believe that you are the one. So even if they don't understand you initially, they will keep on trying. Even if they still do not understand, they will figure out the correct method to keep you happy (e.g. buy diamond ring = 1 week's worth of happiness.) And once they find out the secret formula, they will just keep on repeating it so that the desired results appear. Unlike the Lawyer who will argue with you, the Management graduate who will try to control your spending, the Arts graduate who will 'change major', and the medical school graduate who will operate on you. And you know what, it's really so easy to make engineers believe that you are the 'one'. Say that you like one of their projects and they will be hooked to you forever.

Advantage 3: An engineer boyfriend will never betray your trust
Let me first tell you what is wrong with the rest of the others - the lawyers will lie
about everything, management graduates will cheat your money, the arts graduate will flirt, and you probably just look like another cadaver to the medical school graduate. Your engineer boyfriend is either too busy to have an affair, and even if he does, he is too dumb to lie to you about that.

Hence, an engineer is the most secure boyfriend that you will ever find - rich enough, will keep on trying to understand and please you and has no time for affairs.."

C'mon the other graduates,say something and defend yourselves!!

16 May 2004

"You always hear me when I'm calling
Even catch me when I'm falling
You're the closest one to me
I surrender all to thee
I want the whole wide world to see
That we've always been and we'll always be
Best friends.."

14 May 2004

cranky-me

It's one of those crappy times when everything just doesn't click and seems sooo wrong..and I'm like,why must every single bad thing happens at the very same time..You name it.I think I've got it all..Getting really cranky and a bit angry at myself for not really being in control of my life..Esp when things are not working the way that they should..Lagilaaa..Tensi..Tensi..Plus,my caffein consumption is worsening because of these silly-crappy things(some are not silly though,trust me) Stress??..Definitely..Not a good sign,eih?..*SIGH*..Just can't help it..Coffee is truly my energy and motivation booster rite now..

9 May 2004

a day called Monday..

Whutta lame title..Tak kesah la kan..Trase sgt exhausted..Macam nak demam pun ade gaks..Dunno why..Hectic weekend?Maybe..Coz I had a trip to Byron Bay on Saturday and the nite before,ade Movie Nite..Quite occupied gak..Had such a great time during the trip..The scenery was breathtaking and absolutely jaw-dropping..We watched a Malay movie for the Movie Nite..Citer Trauma..Sayangnye,2nd CD rosak..Didn't get to watch the ending..Heard it was quite good..Nantila,borrow from tokan citer Melayu kat sini..Anyways,trase bahagia jugak today coz,Tv dah ade so I can finally watch Fab 5..And sempat tgk Survivor Reunion and paaaling best biler Rob propose to Amber..Awwwww..Sweet je..And oh,just watched Love Actually yesterday..Love everything about it!!The ACCENT,the actors..Hugh Grant looks too cute to be the PM of Britain in this movie..And currently,loving the tune by MArio Winans:I Don't Wanna Know..Kay,ade one picture from my trip..

9 May 2004

Sunday morning

I kow I am BLUR...esp bile2 pepagi dah ade org tanye soalan2 cepu emas...Buktinye I had to admit that,"Pagi-pagi Najwa adela sangat BLUR , dia telah diKENAkan oleh seorang BdAk MelbOurne HaRi iNi'...."
Lesson to myself: Jangan cube nak jawap soalan analytical yg cepu emas pagi2 kay..

3 May 2004

no idea for this entry's title..Basically,I'm gonna babble on and on about my day..Today's a day off for me,public holiday..Best sebab takyah gi uni and tak best sbb eventhough tak gi uni tapi kerja2ku,Ya Rabbi,menimbun2 banyaknye sama tinggi cam Mt.Cootha tuh..(a lil' bit of exaggeration doesn't hurt,kan?)

If anyone asked me where I would rather be and what I would rather do at this point of time,the answer will be: I would rather be relaxing somewhere sunny and nice (cam Jamaica ke..hahaha..) where I would just eat-sleep,wake up to luckily realize tht I am in Jamaica and then back to sleep again..But,I know this is neva going to happen (yeah..dream on Najwa)..So,I better snap back to reality,get back to my work and hope that this will all be over soon...

Can't hardly wait for my trip to Melbourne this coming winter..Cepatlah cuti ooii...

1 MAY 2004

"Love is a serious mental disease"

     happy labour day everyone!