unsettled najwa
i have been thinking about some things a lot lately. the thinking didnt took me far. not even the simplest solution. there is a simple way out but... benci nyer!! why laa i wasnt being smart enough to know what i want in the first place? want vs. need. do i know what i really want? kot.. but i dont want what i actually need. but after i got what i want, do i really need it? does it matter? again, typing this issue had already given me a terrible headache. i realized that i am at my most disorganized stage. unmotivated. unsettled. edgy. down. its not the pms. this brings me to the next roadblock. how in the world am i gonna complete the testing? stupid project!
really really not looking forward to going to Sydney this coming holiday. tapi dah bayar... wasnt even planning to go pun initially but then, decided to go at the very last minute.But now, dont feel like going at all.. very very very unsettled najwa indeed.
Monday, September 19, 2005
N.R
The day I got my initials on a necklace:
N: Najwa
R: err..Raduan..?? Hehe..
General knowledge for the day:
The day I got my initials on a necklace:
N: Najwa
R: err..Raduan..?? Hehe..
General knowledge for the day:
- 'cuci mata' = looking at the menu but not ordering.Something like, "Tengok boleh, pegang jangan". Geddit?
- Gimme an E for effort. Repeat after me e-f-f-o-r-t, EFFORT!!
- Untidy is great but dirty is uurrghhh..
- Marty Casey (the guy from RockStar:INXS show) is sexy. Nyiahaha.. Please download/listen to Trees and you will know why.
- PMS is not nearly as bad as everyone says. When your warned in advanced by your girlfriend,you must surely know to:
- Cut her a bit of slack
- Be extra attentive (I mean, EXTRA with a capital E..)
- Go out
Friday, September 16, 2005
what happened in the past few weeks?
Merdeka nite
Held at UQ. Good performances, okay food, people dressing up = good fun!
"Zapin Zafana" was the dance. Good commitment and the spirit were high that night. Sampai terlucut sampin, ye Wan Sham..Hehe.. Lurveeeee the band! Gambar later!
dreamworld - goldcoast trip
Dreamworld is my favourite theme park among the other parks. Probably because I am not scared of heights or speed and I have strong stomach. Hehe.. Even though it was drizzling that day, we still had fun. Dropped by Surfers Paradise after that just to lepak and breathe in the beautiful scenery di kala mendung and took some piccies. Went to this 1 shop and saw some very cool models of mini cars and bikes. If I had enuff money tht time, memang laa dah lame beli that Ducati.
Presentation
Had one on Thursday. Nervous gila ba** before my turn came. Pelik. Cam laa tak pernah buat before nih. Padahal presentation biase je. Thesis nyer presentation pon lagi besar than this one tapi leh lepak plak. Luckily, my groupmate, Tom sedaya-upaye menenangkan aku yang maybe nampak huru-hara time tuh. Asked me to take a walk with him and made some small talks in order to make me feel at ease. Thanks, dude!
Girls nite in (ok ok,plus the guys as well)
Went to watch Charlie and the Chocolate Factory. Ramai-ramai. Was planning to sleep over at Nadiyas after that. Yela.. Kite merancang tuhan je yg menentukan.. Girls nite in ape nye. Last-last everyone ter lepak kat umah Nadiya. Main yg tulis-tulis kat kertas name org-perbuatan-anggota badan-name orang.. Haha.. Yes, I know it does sound silly. Tapi sumer org layan giler! Pastuh, main mafia-mafia lak. Seronok! This is my favourite "board game"! And then sambung lak citer hantu. Mule la sumer org rase cuak kan.. We were so into the game and seronok sangat that we didnt realized that hari dah terang kat luar..
Musim orang balik Malaysia
Lepas satu, satu orang balik. Ape nih? Why? Whyyyyy?? Memule Bahiah, and then Remi, pastuh Rabbit, Bijan lak and K.Fidah pon nak balik bersalin.. Yela, yela.. Gie la balik sumer orang.. Tinggal kan laa aku sorang-sorang kat sini.
Anyways, here is a picture which is totally irrelevant to my entry today. Reminded me so much of those sweet ol' times when we really had fun.
(l-r: me, kimah and huda)
Merdeka nite
Held at UQ. Good performances, okay food, people dressing up = good fun!
"Zapin Zafana" was the dance. Good commitment and the spirit were high that night. Sampai terlucut sampin, ye Wan Sham..Hehe.. Lurveeeee the band! Gambar later!
dreamworld - goldcoast trip
Dreamworld is my favourite theme park among the other parks. Probably because I am not scared of heights or speed and I have strong stomach. Hehe.. Even though it was drizzling that day, we still had fun. Dropped by Surfers Paradise after that just to lepak and breathe in the beautiful scenery di kala mendung and took some piccies. Went to this 1 shop and saw some very cool models of mini cars and bikes. If I had enuff money tht time, memang laa dah lame beli that Ducati.
Presentation
Had one on Thursday. Nervous gila ba** before my turn came. Pelik. Cam laa tak pernah buat before nih. Padahal presentation biase je. Thesis nyer presentation pon lagi besar than this one tapi leh lepak plak. Luckily, my groupmate, Tom sedaya-upaye menenangkan aku yang maybe nampak huru-hara time tuh. Asked me to take a walk with him and made some small talks in order to make me feel at ease. Thanks, dude!
Girls nite in (ok ok,plus the guys as well)
Went to watch Charlie and the Chocolate Factory. Ramai-ramai. Was planning to sleep over at Nadiyas after that. Yela.. Kite merancang tuhan je yg menentukan.. Girls nite in ape nye. Last-last everyone ter lepak kat umah Nadiya. Main yg tulis-tulis kat kertas name org-perbuatan-anggota badan-name orang.. Haha.. Yes, I know it does sound silly. Tapi sumer org layan giler! Pastuh, main mafia-mafia lak. Seronok! This is my favourite "board game"! And then sambung lak citer hantu. Mule la sumer org rase cuak kan.. We were so into the game and seronok sangat that we didnt realized that hari dah terang kat luar..
Musim orang balik Malaysia
Lepas satu, satu orang balik. Ape nih? Why? Whyyyyy?? Memule Bahiah, and then Remi, pastuh Rabbit, Bijan lak and K.Fidah pon nak balik bersalin.. Yela, yela.. Gie la balik sumer orang.. Tinggal kan laa aku sorang-sorang kat sini.
Anyways, here is a picture which is totally irrelevant to my entry today. Reminded me so much of those sweet ol' times when we really had fun.
(l-r: me, kimah and huda)
Tuesday, September 13, 2005
my teeth and I
I browsed through some pictures just now.Pictures of me, me and my friends, me and you dll..Browsing through pictures is officially my favourite pastime at the moment!As if I got nothing better to do.But then, since that is the only thing that I can do to actually get on with my life peacefully.Buat je laa.Anyways,I noticed sumting while looking at the pictures.In one of the pictures where I had this wide grin onmy face,I noticed that I actually had a quite nice set of teeth.Straight and organized.Perasankah saye? Selamberr...I dont give a damn!!Miahahaha..Thanks to those 4 torturing years of wearing braces.Seb baik paid off..I hate it when I had the braces on.Cam geek!The only thing that keep me going was when I got the chance to choose the colourful rubber to be put on my teeth.Pink, Hijau,Baby blue, warna-warna pelangi..Excited semacam! Haha..Tapi doktor India tuh dengki doh.Sumtimes I dont get the coloured ones.He just gave me the plain ones (warna getah) instead.Dengki!!Dulu,I hated to smile because of the stupid braces.Conscious semacam.Nak tgk gamba2 mase ade braces dulu pon tak lalu.HUDUH!! But now,I can smile from ear to ear.Muahaha..Tunjuk sket hasil 4 thn pakai braces tuh.Hihihi..Tak best doh pakai braces.Nak makan susah.Kene selalu gosok gigi.Takleh makan chewing gum or sugus.Takleh gigit apple directly, kene potong dulu.Takleh makan mende-mende keras.Dahla banyak pantang makan.Selalu kene ulcer mulut lak tuh pasal besi.Tapi I didnt obey all the freaking rules laa kan.Ade sekali tuh braces tercabut sbb kunyah Sugus.Wahaha..Panic for a few minutes.Seb baik ok je pastuh.Tapi kene bebel ngan dentist India tuh (oo..Now I know why didnt get the colourful rubbers)..Esok-esok biler ade anak sendri,and if they have to put on the braces,make sure pakai mase kecik2.Dont be like me.Pakai after high school.And then continue mase kat kolej and uni.Tak best doh!
I browsed through some pictures just now.Pictures of me, me and my friends, me and you dll..Browsing through pictures is officially my favourite pastime at the moment!As if I got nothing better to do.But then, since that is the only thing that I can do to actually get on with my life peacefully.Buat je laa.Anyways,I noticed sumting while looking at the pictures.In one of the pictures where I had this wide grin onmy face,I noticed that I actually had a quite nice set of teeth.Straight and organized.Perasankah saye? Selamberr...I dont give a damn!!Miahahaha..Thanks to those 4 torturing years of wearing braces.Seb baik paid off..I hate it when I had the braces on.Cam geek!The only thing that keep me going was when I got the chance to choose the colourful rubber to be put on my teeth.Pink, Hijau,Baby blue, warna-warna pelangi..Excited semacam! Haha..Tapi doktor India tuh dengki doh.Sumtimes I dont get the coloured ones.He just gave me the plain ones (warna getah) instead.Dengki!!Dulu,I hated to smile because of the stupid braces.Conscious semacam.Nak tgk gamba2 mase ade braces dulu pon tak lalu.HUDUH!! But now,I can smile from ear to ear.Muahaha..Tunjuk sket hasil 4 thn pakai braces tuh.Hihihi..Tak best doh pakai braces.Nak makan susah.Kene selalu gosok gigi.Takleh makan chewing gum or sugus.Takleh gigit apple directly, kene potong dulu.Takleh makan mende-mende keras.Dahla banyak pantang makan.Selalu kene ulcer mulut lak tuh pasal besi.Tapi I didnt obey all the freaking rules laa kan.Ade sekali tuh braces tercabut sbb kunyah Sugus.Wahaha..Panic for a few minutes.Seb baik ok je pastuh.Tapi kene bebel ngan dentist India tuh (oo..Now I know why didnt get the colourful rubbers)..Esok-esok biler ade anak sendri,and if they have to put on the braces,make sure pakai mase kecik2.Dont be like me.Pakai after high school.And then continue mase kat kolej and uni.Tak best doh!
Friday, September 09, 2005
Wednesday, September 07, 2005
Sunday, September 04, 2005
i like you
I like you.
I like you a whole lot.
I like you because
When something matters to me,
It matters to you, too.
When you have a good idea,
You tell me first
When I do, I tell you first.
Thats why we make such a great team.
I like you because
When I say something funny, you laugh,
And when Im not my usual self,
You notice right away
And ask me, "Whats wrong?"
You are there for me and Im there for you.
Thats what friends are for.
I like you because - I just do.
When somebody asks me who my best friend is,
I say, "You." And you say, "Me."
And fifty years from now,
We will ll say the same thing.
Thats the way it is and will always be
You can count on it!
I gave this to a dear friend of mine once.
Hey, I really meant it tau. Every single word. You know I am never ever good at saying stuff. For some reasons, I felt that words that usually came out from my mouth are always wrong. They are either spoken at the wrong time, just plain inappropriate, or worse, both. (I sounded quite mean sometimes especially bab nak luah-luah prasan tak best nih).
That is why I always wish that I can be a good conversationalist who will always know what to say. More importantly, being able to express what I think and how I feel in an effective way. Ntah ape problem nye, taktau ah. Nak cakap tak cukup education utk bercakap, mmg tak logic laa kan. Tension tau tak jadik org yg susah nak cakap nih. That is why I need people who can always encourage me to say things that are buried deep in my mind and heart. Bukan susah pun. Alaa.. Macam belajar reflective listening and body language. All those communication skills that you can practice to show that you are really listening to what the other person is saying and show how open and supportive you are towards the other person.
Haa tengok dah menyimpang jauh dah nih. Well, back to the poem above. Yes, I meant it when I gave it to you and I still mean it now. Up to now, you are the only person that I think fit all the description above. Some people just dont get what I said. Funny things lagi laa. You made me feel much appreciated. And thanks for that.
I felt like such a bum for not being able to be there yesterday to celebrate. I know I should. I really hope you had a great time. Being surrounded by good friends AND good food (I earned a bit of credits for that tiramisu!Hehe..)
I just did not expect that your birthday will be celebrated earlier. Because I was planning to do something special for you on your birthday. You know how I like doing all the sweet surprises. Hehe.. Rase amat satisfied melihat orang gembire kerana mendapat kejutan kejutan yang membahagiakan.
What you said a while ago, "Kawan menangis susah nak cari and kawan ketawa senang nak jumpe." Or something like that. I just hope that I am still both. Even though I know that we rarely see and talk to each other due to commitments and stuff but hey, I am always here if you ever need someone to listen to you.
I even feel a bit 'sebak' while writing this. It might be the pms. I do not know for sure. My life is an emotional roller-coaster these past few weeks.
Well, happy birthday and thanks for being you.
I like you.
I like you a whole lot.
I like you because
When something matters to me,
It matters to you, too.
When you have a good idea,
You tell me first
When I do, I tell you first.
Thats why we make such a great team.
I like you because
When I say something funny, you laugh,
And when Im not my usual self,
You notice right away
And ask me, "Whats wrong?"
You are there for me and Im there for you.
Thats what friends are for.
I like you because - I just do.
When somebody asks me who my best friend is,
I say, "You." And you say, "Me."
And fifty years from now,
We will ll say the same thing.
Thats the way it is and will always be
You can count on it!
I gave this to a dear friend of mine once.
Hey, I really meant it tau. Every single word. You know I am never ever good at saying stuff. For some reasons, I felt that words that usually came out from my mouth are always wrong. They are either spoken at the wrong time, just plain inappropriate, or worse, both. (I sounded quite mean sometimes especially bab nak luah-luah prasan tak best nih).
That is why I always wish that I can be a good conversationalist who will always know what to say. More importantly, being able to express what I think and how I feel in an effective way. Ntah ape problem nye, taktau ah. Nak cakap tak cukup education utk bercakap, mmg tak logic laa kan. Tension tau tak jadik org yg susah nak cakap nih. That is why I need people who can always encourage me to say things that are buried deep in my mind and heart. Bukan susah pun. Alaa.. Macam belajar reflective listening and body language. All those communication skills that you can practice to show that you are really listening to what the other person is saying and show how open and supportive you are towards the other person.
Haa tengok dah menyimpang jauh dah nih. Well, back to the poem above. Yes, I meant it when I gave it to you and I still mean it now. Up to now, you are the only person that I think fit all the description above. Some people just dont get what I said. Funny things lagi laa. You made me feel much appreciated. And thanks for that.
I felt like such a bum for not being able to be there yesterday to celebrate. I know I should. I really hope you had a great time. Being surrounded by good friends AND good food (I earned a bit of credits for that tiramisu!Hehe..)
I just did not expect that your birthday will be celebrated earlier. Because I was planning to do something special for you on your birthday. You know how I like doing all the sweet surprises. Hehe.. Rase amat satisfied melihat orang gembire kerana mendapat kejutan kejutan yang membahagiakan.
What you said a while ago, "Kawan menangis susah nak cari and kawan ketawa senang nak jumpe." Or something like that. I just hope that I am still both. Even though I know that we rarely see and talk to each other due to commitments and stuff but hey, I am always here if you ever need someone to listen to you.
I even feel a bit 'sebak' while writing this. It might be the pms. I do not know for sure. My life is an emotional roller-coaster these past few weeks.
Well, happy birthday and thanks for being you.
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