Friday, March 25, 2005

I:
  • am not feeling well (extremely painful sore throat)
  • want waffles for breakfast tomorrow
  • wanna watch more movies (like The Pacifier,Sepet and Be Cool - again?Yep..)
  • wanna enrol in Luis Pinto dance classes (me dancing?Oh yeah..)
  • wanna listen to Thirsty Merc's My Completeness
  • want TIRAMISU really really bad
  • wish the River Festival is tomorrow
  • wanna be in a band and play drums
  • need to be more sensible towards the jokes of other people(eventhough they're not funny)
  • really wanna go to Three Monkeys and Kylie Minogue's concert
  • need to have Boost Juice's King William's Chocolate
  • wanna learn kickboxing
  • want shoes,shoes,shoes,shoes,shoes and more shoes
  • want to design my own wedding gown
  • need to learn to control unwanted silly facial expressions
  • wish I could turn back time and play Faris Daniel for Drama Blok more properly(me acting? Ooooh yeah..)
  • am obviously bored(or in a state of denial.You do have A LOT OF WORK waiting to be done,you know..) and it's only the first day of Easter Break.
things do get worse when you think they just couldn't get any worse and things do get better when you think they just couldn't get any better..

1) It was always stressful 2 or 3 days before my meeting with my beloved supervisor.I have to prepare myself with questions,ideas,suggestions and worse, my progress of the week.It's not that he put pressure on me.He's very supportive,flexible,lenient,helpful,funny and not to mention classically good-looking (he's from Greek background.Whoppa!). I was really stressed out today before our meeeting coz my research this week was kinda going nowhere.I was really really lost.I was ready to reschedule my meeting.Ntah camne ntah,I just went for the meeting feeling so unprepared and nervous.Luckily,it turned out ok.Better than ok actually.Got heaps of useful stuff for my thesis esp on how to develop my Visualization Tests.Plus,I got extra help from another Lecturer who offered to help me with the movies.Yey!


2) My mom accident kene langgar Kembara while she was riding her motorbike.It happened somewhere near KLCC.Alhamdulillah the injuries weren't so serious(according to my Mom la but I really think it was serious.Her knees koyak teruk..) and she's recovering. It happened last Friday.I just knew about it yesterday.Why? Coz when I called home last Sunday,the entire family didn't say anything about the accident and in fact everyone sounded happy and fine.Semuanye adelah kerane tidak mahu anaknye ini risau. Padahal at that time she wasn’t in a good condition. I was sooo shocked when I finally knew about it.Cam nak nangis ade(nangis dah pun),gelabah,cuak,gabra,risau,cam nak balik Mesia jam tu jugak dll..But everything’s fine now.Syukur sangat2.....

Wednesday, March 23, 2005

no title

My sister will undergo her operation this Thursday. I called mom last Sunday. She told my sister is doing ok despite the fact she will undergo an operation to remove a lump in her breast. We first knew about it when she went for a medical check-up utk that PKN thing.They found out there was a lump. So, they told us to wait coz they need to do like, a further diagnosis to know whether its just a lump or more serious than that. We waited for them to call. Kesian sangat my sister. She freaked out and cried when the doctor told her about the lump. But then, who wouldn’t? Simply being a woman puts any female at risk of breast cancer. Lagi-lagi at the age of 18. Absolutely terrifying. Plus the anxiety of getting her SPM result lagi at that time. Bertambah-tambah takut and stress la die..Alhamdulillah..The result of the diagnosis confirmed that the lump has got nothing to do with breast cancer. But still, it must be removed to prevent any further discomfort.

Hang in there!!

Self reminder: Must call sister before the operation. Must. Must. Must. Please do not forget.

Sunday, March 20, 2005

mission accomplished!

me and salwas hot n troppo pancake
aiza n dilas Strawberry punch pancake
fazzs yummy Nachos
aizas wedges with sweet chilli and sour cream
fazzs iced chocolate

= happy,happy,happy,happy,happy,happy,happy..tralalalalalalalalalala..

only if u can see the wide grin on my happy face, then you know how important the eating spree is at Pancake Manor's yesterday

aaahh..still couldnt wipe that grin off my face today =)

Friday, March 18, 2005

PQSA Dinner

We had dinner with the Petronas VIPs last nite at Innes Room. It was nice. Been there before for Bruneian Nite so I kinda know what to expect in terms of the food and the setting. I LOVE the PowerPoint presentation by Dollah and Huda. With <Standing In The Eyes OF The World> as the background music, descriptive pictures, sufficient information, ade video clips lagi..To my amazement, the overall outcome was excellent. Technically, it was really really interactive and this is even more highlighted by the fact that no fancy programs were used to produce the presentation. Just PowerPoint. Simple. Well done guys!!

And then, I talked to Mr.Aziz regarding my March allowance yang tak masuk2 lagi. And he simply told me that :Maybe awak tak hantar surat lagi kot:Surat pekebende lak nih. Aku pun tanye dengan muka yg sgt2 blur :Surat ape En.Aziz?: :Justification letter for your results last sem and a study plan. Awak tak hantar lagi, sebab tu allowance tak masuk lagi: Waaah..Aku takyah hantar la justification letter tuh. Aku tak fail maa. In front of quite a number of people lak tuh. Chett! Malu la nih..:Tapi saye memang sure yang saye tak perlu hantar ape2 surat based on results saye arituh.Confirm En.Aziz:Dengan sengih2 kambing nye, he told me that he will look into this matter ngan Azree. Duhh..Apparaa..

Anyways, I would really like to think that last nite event was a success even though there were minor flaws here and there. But then, normal la tuh..Nothing’s perfect.. And again, congratulations to everyone who was involved. Your effort was definitely worthwhile.Hopefully someone will upload the pictures a.s.a.p..

Sunday, March 13, 2005

what i really really want right now is..

any pancake with ice cream plus choc sauce and banana

and also Oreo..

Wednesday, March 09, 2005

di atas normal - peter pan

pikiranku
tak dapat ku mengerti
kaki di kepala
kepala di kaki
pikiranku
patutnya menyadari
siapa yang harus
dan tak harus ku cari

tetapi tak dapat ku mengerti

sesuatu
yang harus ku sadari
kau tinggalkanku
tanpa sebab yang pasti
sesuatu yang harusnya terjadi
kau sakiti aku
kau yang harus ku benci

tetapi tak dapat ku mengerti
tetapi tak dapat ku mengerti

ku mencari sesuatu yang telah pergi
ku mencari hati yang ku benci
ku mencari sesuatu yang tak kembali
ku mencari hati yang ku benci
ku mencari tetap tak dapat ku temui
ku mencari hati yang ku benci

In red,relevant,yang lain takde kene mengene.Suke bangat lagu ni!

Monday, March 07, 2005

Let go of any hatred you have because anger makes you age

I will have to agree with it. I am disappointed right now that I am angry. And I am afraid that it will turn into intense dislike and I hate myself for being in this state. Hatred and anger are like a time bomb. Given a time limit, it will keep ticking and when the time comes, it will go off. As hatred and anger are slowly being built up inside you, there will be many possible obstructive consequences that you might see. Mentally exhausted, vengeance, bitching, backstabbing, cattiness, rumours spreading and loads more. The outcome? Faster aging and a depressing life. And one day when you cannot hold it back any longer, you will explode just like a volcano.

But sometimes, you just cannot help from hating someone at his or her first sight. Or being annoyed with tiny-little-baby-hiccups matters. Or even worse, you cant even recall the reason you are infuriated in the first place. So, why am I angry in the first place? I am not sure. Maybe I have expectations that are not being met and questions that are not answered that led me feeling uncertain about things. If only I know all the answers, things will be so much easier. Can save myself from aging quickly and stay a bit younger.