home sweet home

hey people,
im back!
back in gombak!
yeay!!

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Why I had fun at Harbourtown

Major reason to be extremely happy is of course I get to shop, shop and shop. More reason to be happy? The expenses were not entirely on me. Yeap, shopping trips with moms are always worthwhile. The hot-ish weather didnt stop us from having fun there. Mom was ecstatic I guess of getting the things that she wanted with extremely good bargain. 2 handbags just for this trip. Hehe.. Now you can understand where I get this fetish from. See, it is not entirely my fault :p. To me, the secret to achieve satisfaction when shopping is when I double-triple the bargain price and it was still lower than the original price. Got myself a pair of nice sunnies from city beach, seluar kerja from Table Eight, shirt kerja (beriye-iye beli mende2 nak keja), and loooong necklaces from Insane. So, there. I was truly satisfied with this shopping trip. Happy, happy, happy. Since we borrowed a wheelchair from the tourism lounge there, I pushed my mom around in it. She didnt want the electric-driven-wheelchair (where one can just control the speed just like a normal motorbike and happily cruise around). Because nanti takut tertinggal kan kitorang yang jalan at normal walking pace nih. Lagipun, you can practice your driving skill when pushing me around in this thing, she said. Like, reversing the wheelchair, pushing it through a very narrow entrance when entering shops, learn how to estimate distance in narrow space and much more. Malas nak tulis,banyak lagi. Mwahahaha.. I know, I really really have to take driving classes when I got back. Yes, mom. Point noted!

i finally graduated


yeay!!

time and fate sure have a good sense of humour when not needed.
especially not now.

city sight-seeing was cancelled.
stayed in instead, thanks to the hot weather.

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picked up emak from airport just now.happy and glad to see her in a much better condition.last i saw her was in july when she just had the accident,still badly affected by it and using wheelchair to move around. thanks salwa for driving us eventhough it was a very last minute substitution.really appreciate your help.

emak is always full of advices which are true and wajib dituruti but somehow i have the habit of denying them in the first place.mothers live long before us and of course their lifetime experiences made them wanting only the best for their children.it has never been my intention to not to listen to her with heart and ears wide open but there are times that i found myself to stand so strongly for what i think.in other words, i am stubborn.or degil.or can also be known as keras kepala.but i know that she is always right, no matter what. it is just that the regret that comes after not readily accepting the advices in the first place which always resulted in bad choices, bad decisions and more bad choices .and most of the time i always ended up saying this to myself: i should have listened to you.i wish i could turn back time and do the right thing.

anyways, where should i bring emak to tomorrow?

pammy and tommy

It took much more than just a whole lot of effort to start doing something that you havent done for quite some time. Like updating this blog.

Exams were way over. Results were out 2 days ago. And soon Ill be graduating. Yeay for me! In the meantime, I am patiently waiting for my mom to come all the way from KL for my graduation ceremony AND for some serious shopping. Ah, cant hardly wait for the latter.

There were 2 new shows being aired on Seven last night. The Pammy Anderson show, which I forgot what it was called and Pammys ex show, Tommy Lee Goes to College. Ridiculous and shallow it might seem, but I actually enjoyed both shows. Haha.. The Pammy one was a regular comedy series with cute jokes in between. I even think that she was cute in it. Played a blonde sorta-bimbo who just broke up with her rock star boyfriend and was trying to start a whole new life after the break-up by, guess what? Working as an assistant in a bookstore. Cute.

And as all of us can guess by the name, the Tommy Lee show is about him going to a uni and experiencing a student’s life which of course highlights the main purpose of the show, which is studying. Cute! (Lame jugak sebenarnya considering he stars in his own tv show. Publicity-seeker!) Ahaha.. I hate to admit this but apart from the nasty stories and gossips, I really think that he is kinda handsome. If you just take your mind off the piercings and the overwhelming tattoos, you might just see that he is actually good-looking. But of course, even with those things, he is already kinda sexy in a very rock star way. Nyiahaha..


tommy lee

Aahh.. it was raining heavily outside. Blissful!!

deleting a post is much easier than creating a new one.

lazy, unmotivated and not in the mood to update.

btw, im not feeling good today.

thank you

today is Wednesday

Just as I thought that things are finally coming to an end, I realized that they are so far from being over. Sigh.

*take a deep breath*
*relax*
*you will be fine*

weekend endavour

Had fun making roti canai and karipap last weekend. I had my hands full the whole day trying to get the right karipap pastry dough.Right, meaning, lembut dan tidak keras bila digoreng.Hoh..Susah maa.. Had to add in loads of butter to actually get it correct. We invented a whole new meaning to the karipap filling. Since we didnt have any meat or chicken, we replaced it with a mixture of squids, mussels and other seafood stuff which I didnt know their names.Haha..Sounded and looked weird in the first place but it turned out well in the end.Yeay! The joy of experimenting.Aaahh.. Nan successfully played the role of macha si penebar roti canai.Tebar jangan tak tebar! And not forgetting Amar as the 2nd macha who showed quite a bit of skills as well. Cayalah! Korang 2 orang leh apply kerja jadik penebar roti canai after nih.Hehe.. After all the hard work, we had a yummy dinner of roti canai, roti telur, roti sardin and of course karipap. Waahh..So many kinds of roti. The karipap wasnt too bad either.Its just that the pastry was a bit like cookies after been fried. Result of the butterry dough.Hehe.. Berbaloinye one whole day cam bibik sekejap. And then, the next day we had breakfast of roti canai and roti tampal with teh tarik! Haha.. Who said you couldnt get a good old mamak style of brekky in Brisbane. Ade teh tarik lagi tu! What a good way to start the day. Later that day, watched Corpse Bride and of course, Smallville season 5. Smallville is just getting better and better. The characters are interestingly developed, the storyline got twisted more and more and Tom Welling is looking better than ever :) Anyways, all of a sudden i craved for Max Brenners choc souffle. So mouth-watering.Especially when you had a bite of it and let the sweet, warm choc filling melted in your mouth.Soft on the outside and even softer on the inside, with WARM creamy chocolate filling. Aaahh.. Rindunya..

blog updated finally - celebrations

aidilfitri yang mulia
Some celebrated raya on Thursday.Some,on Friday.I celebrated on the latter day. So, pagi raya went for semayang raya at Guyatt Park.Gloomy weather.But it was good coz takde la panas cam last year.Sembahyang raya went pretty well until it came to khutbah time.Suddenly,heavy downpour.Kemut sumer orang trying to find shelter.Anyways,raya tetap raya.So,had makn-makan afterwards and of course, sessi bergambar (acara wajib). Plenty of food.Variety! Some friends went to open houses afterwards.Me? Went home directly after that to study.Sigh.Terpaksa.Had 2 exams on Saturday.

salam-salam pagi raya



the day i celebrated my independence day
how did i celebrate? Answer: WINDOW-SHOPPING!!
(captions are for pictures from l-r)

1- commencing the journey for the day.Yeay!! Scanning the scene, trying to decide where to go first.

2- Decision made. First stop: Valley Girl!

3 - Browsing around.Nothing interesting to satisfy the bargain-hunter's needs.

4- Spotted something that i really really like.REALLY REALLY like.

5- Next stop: Myer.Myer is always full of cool and nice-to-look-at shoes. rmk collection is no exception.

6- More shoe stops. Really like the ankle-strap with dangling beads heels.Chanteeekk!!

7- Many more stops to make! Keep on walking.Where to next?

8- This is one more thing that never failed to make happy by just looking at them (besides shoes)

9- More cute accessories. Hoh.Sedap dipandang mata..

10- Takde keje saje saje.Took a self pic in a mirror.

11- On a citycat, heading back home.Exhausted but happy :)

The end

yeay-i-am-done-with-my-Honours-project-for-good


Spicy and me.And thats my demo poster on the left..


and that is the-much-talked-about Lazaros Kastanis, my suprevisor

I would like to thank Laz, the greatest supervisor one can have for his contributions to the success of this Honours project and for making this arduous year a fulfilling and memorable experience. Thank you very much for your much appreciated knowledge, guidance, encouragement, feedback, patience and enthusiasm for pushing boundaries as well as for the most mentally stimulating meetings I have ever had..Muchas gracias!

Anyways, nak cakap sket pasal keikhlasan membuat sesuatu perkara.Kadang-kadang susah betul nak rasa ikhlas buat something tuh.Sometimes, eventhough dah cuba mengikhlas kan hati tapi ada juga this one tiny,nagging voice inside your head yang mengharapkan balasan.Mungkin kita rasa apa yang kita buat memang sepatutnya dibalas balik secara baik. Tu yang dah jadi tak ihkhlas kan.Memang bagus jadi orang yang ikhlas ni sebab kita takkan meletakkan harapan menggunung untuk the other party to do the same thing in return.Because when we hope for them to do the same thing that we did for them,and in the end it turned out that they didnt even give a damn about the effort that we have put in, we would feel frustrated, deeply furious or disappointed.And bila kita ihklas, kita tak takut nak all out buat something regardless of whether we get something in return or not. Banyak sangat contoh pasal ikhlas tak ikhlas membuat sesuatu nih.

Macam, group assignment kan. X nih rajin orangnya tapi dia tak contribute all out untuk siapkan assignment sebab dia tgk groupmate dia yang lain tak bersungguh-sungguh langsung.Dia fikir, kalau dia contribute all out pun buat apa kalau dia sorang je yang kena bertungkus-lumus and the others macam mengharapkan dia sorang.Dia pun rasa lagi,kalau dia tgk orang lain beriya-iya baru la dia akan contribute betul2.Mungkin juga groupmates dia yang lain tuh ada masalah yang tersendiri menyebabkan mereka-mereka itu tidak dapat menyumbangkan usaha sama rata.But then,this is another issue.Kalau X tu ikhlas mungkin dia akan cuba juga contribute for the sake of the team and at the same time cuba menasihatkan rakan-rakan dia yg lain supaya turut berusaha jugak.Kiranya, X takkan berkira sangat lah kan berapa banyak yang dia kena buat untuk siapkan kerja tu.

Hrmm..Macam x relevant la pulak. Alaaa.. Banyak laa contoh-contoh kecil yang lain.Macam kalau kita bagi orang hadiah masa birthday mereka. Kalau kita ikhlas,sure kita tak frust bila kita tak dapat apa-apa pun dr mereka time birthday kita.Tapi, kalau ada sedikit perasaan mengharapkan balasan sebab tak ikhlas,memang la kita akan rasa buang masa je bagi hadiah haritu or maybe sedikit sedih dan kecewa kerana terasa mereka tidak ingat kat kita.

Or bila kita sanggup menjadi pendengar setia kepada masalah2 Y.Tapi bila giliran kita ada masalah,Y tidak memberikan respons yang sepatutnya.Mungkin juga Y bukan jenis orang yang mendengar dan tidak tahu bagaimana hendak menenangkan orang yang sedang bermasalah. Yela.Tak semua orang boleh buat benda yg sama.Jika kita ikhlas mendengar masalah2 Y, mungkin kita tidak akan merasa bahawa Y ni seorang yg tidak tahu mengenang budi kerana niat kita ikhlas hendak menolong Y menyelesaikan masalah/menenangkan dia.

Tapi kadang-kadang bukanla kita nak sangat pun balasan yang setimpal atas kebaikan yang kita dah buat.Tak semestinya kita nak orang bagi hadiah kat kita balik masa birthday kita or tak semestinya kita nak Y betul-betul into our problem kita and cuba selesaikan.And tak semestinya X nak groupmates dia yg lain buat contribute macam dia because cara org berkerja mmg tak sama.And tahap kehebatan/kepandaian pun lain-lain.Takleh laa nak expect semua orang hebat-hebat dan pandai-pandai belaka. Cuma, kita nak dihargai atas apa yang kita dah buat.APPRECIATION and ACKNOWLEDGEMENT. Cukupla dengan wish birthday je ke.And tak perlu cuba come up ngan solutions pun.Cukup sekadar mendengar,bersimpati dan tidak judgemental.Orang tgh bermasalah kan,jangan la menambah kan lagi beban dia.And also, groupmates tu cakap la thanks ke or tunjukla appreciation sikit kat X.

Kita kadang-kadang lupa untuk menghargai pengorbanan ataupun kebaikan orang lain.Mungkin kita appreciate tapi kita tak tunjuk sebbab kita appreciate/acknowledge dalam hati (boleh ke?). Tapi bila kita tak tunjuk macamana la the other party tu tau kan?.. Dah kita rasa down or underappreciated. Bila dah macam ni, secara tak langsung kita akan rasa discouraged utk terus melakukan kebaikan atau perkara-perkara yg sepatutnya kepada pihak-pihak yg tertentu.

Oleh itu kita harus ikhlas membuat sesuatu dan appreciate and acknowledge laa orang-orang sekeliling yang rasa-rasa dah banyak buat baik pada kita.Sementara masih ada masa.Bila dah takde nanti,haa...barula nak meyesalkan...

SEKIAN

(this is such a length entry.But if u managed to read until this point,anda telah berjaya mendengar luahan perasaan saya dan saya sangat berterima kasih atas usaha anda itu!)

happy ending

my demo went well. everyone looked happy.satisfied smiles on their faces as their project demo went really really good.there was this feeling of eagerness in the air since 8 am this morning. everyone seemed so enthusiastic to show the outcomes of working hard for the past 2 semesters.that included me as well la kan. seronok semacam. nervous tu nervous jugak.how can you not be nervous when all the important people in the industry came to see you 'selling' your project and bombarded u with all sorts of questions afterwards.well.. the industry ppl tht I feared the most the nite before turned out to be not as scary as I thought. they were lenient. alih-alih other UQ academics(merangkumi supervisors of other students) pulak yg turned out to be sooo demanding and hard to please. I got all these challenging questions from this one particular guy yg keep asking me stuff trying to make my project looked insignificant and not challenging at all. Helloooo... kalau tak susah, takde laa sampai ade dalam list Honours project kan? Duh! But I managed to answer him after all. Baru tau. Hmph!! Anyways, sangat la penat.Talking almost non-stop like a mad parrot since 9 am sampai 4.00 pm.Super-duper xhausted.Energy level = 0. Had the feeling tht Im gonna miss terawikh at musolla tonite.Huhuhu.. Will put up todays's piccies of the demo tomorrow...

Greys anatomy

I like watching Greys Anatomy.I have never liked watching any doctor-ish tv series.But this one is an exception. Its like watching The O.C on a hospital set.Theres soo much dramas going on: the conflicts, affairs, relationship problems, life struggle etc etc while at the same time trying to save a patients life.. Cant wait to see where the friendship between Izie and Alex will lead to :)
Anyways, this next info is irrelevant to todays entry:

Currently on heavy rotation:
Some kind of wonderful - Joss Stone
Less is more - Joss Stone
Spoiled - Joss Stone
My completeness - Thirsty Merc
Salvame - RBD (a Spanish song)
Cinta - Flop Poppy
Segitiga - Cokelat
Super duper love - Joss Stone (again...)

Gonna have a long and tiring day today.
Have a good Tuesday everyone!

lalalala

uninspired ..
facing a major writer's block..well im not exactly tht kinda writer.. just an insigfinicant writer of my own thesis. it requires time, concentration and peace to write beautifully.. i mean for my thesis, of course..to write crap, anytime also caaan.. when you have sufficient time, you can put yourself in deep thought, keep yourself calm and focus more and pinpoint even the tiny little flaws that are not visible before this.. tinggal conclusion je....conclusionnnnn jee...please laaa.....

anyhoouu..had iftar at the musolla today. It was a fiesta of good food.Seriously.As the iftar was organized by MSAUQ sisters,so,most of the food,I think,was of middle east cuisine.Fave dish would be the lagsania.Super rich with fresh meat, veges and top off with a very creamy cheese layer.Sedap, mantap mengamuks! Other dishes were equally good as well.Didnt know their names.Tapi mmg sedap.Most of them had meat in it.The pasta, the Turkish wrap,the homemade pizzas,the gulai (yg nih mmg tak tau ape name die) and even the bread had it.I dont even like to eat read meat.But I allow myself for an exception today.And yeah,right now Im feeling slightly meat-ish.And oh,Pinna Cotta(did I get the spelling right?) yang Nadia jual kat pasar ramadhan tuh sedap aah..Yum!

mr sun is finally here..
:)

jauh di mata dekat di hati



they said absence makes the heart goes fonder..
oo really..??
well in your case Anina,SANGATLAH BETUL!!! haha.. (dammit,I have to admit that I actually miss you. Quoted somewhere in Mid-Jan, 2005, Petrosains :"Alaaa..Tak cool la kene ngaku miss miss orang nih"..I know Iknow..I take that back)
Your absence definitely makes my heart goes fonder!! (Cheewaah..I bet if u read this,memang dah gelak berguling-guling)
See,how strong your impact on me? (Isyh..isyh..Baaaad Anina)
Out of the blue,I was reminded of your 'Kegilaan'. Hehehe..
No one could sing that T-rex (this is the huge dinasour statue in Petrosains) song tuh hari-hari kat Petrosains plus the act as well..Cam dinaso!!! ("Hey kawan-kawan..Selamat dtg ke dunia ku...lalala..")
Or the time when we were caught red-handed dancing a.k.a berlakon buat video clip Relaku Pujuk on the surveillance camera in Discovery Station..
Or the time we were so immersed in updating with each other's gossips as if we have entered a different world (hoo..tak tipu..bercerite ngan makcik nih mmg tak ingat sekeliling dah..Gossip-monger!! )

Anyways Miss Anina, I would like to wish you a very happy belated 2xth birthday! May God bless you always..

there, there Najwa..shhh...

When you cannot find solace in things that usually cheer you up,
When you fail to get the encouragement that you need to motivate you ,
The best you can do is to find the strength in you by whatever means and keep going..

Bulan puasa ni banyak-banyak kan la amal ye Najwa. Semoga ditenangkan hati dan dikuatkan kesabaran...Aminn..
Takde pekdah nye rase down and complain-complain nih..

super duper love

Yeh are you diggin on me
Yeh yeh yeh
Im diggin on u now baby
Yeh do u wanna little bit of my love
Yeh wait a minute wait a minute

All the time i knew that you loved me
Because you were always there
Could i be that mistaken
Believing that you really care

In the presence of all my friends
You stood there holding my hand
And you promise me faithfully
That you will be my only man

Yeh are you diggin on me
Yeh yeh yeh
Im diggin on u now baby
Yeh do u wanna little bit of my love
Yeh wait a minute wait a minute

Everytime i walk down the street with you
Im as proud as a girl can be
Just to know that u r mine

In the presence of all my friends
You stood there holding my hand
And you promise me faithfully
That you will be my only man

Yeh are you diggin on me
Yeh yeh yeh
Im diggin on u now baby
Yeh do u wanna little bit of my love
Yeh wait a minute your love is super oh baby
See im trying to tell you
Your love is super duper
Super yes it is yes it is

Your love is
Your love is super
Are you diggin on me coz im diggin on you
Im just trying to tell you
Oh this love is super duper
Wait a minute
And all that good loving belongs to me

***
yeh yeh..im diggin on Joss Stone.
and yeh yeh..im super duper mentally exhausted..

(oi , are you diggin on me?)

because im a strong girl

motivator(s)

• 90% for TMAN 3001 Virotec essay
• 90% for Advanced Human Computer Interaction seminar (talking about bridges can be fun and satisfying..in a way)
• good progress in statistical analysis on SPSS (I soooo owe you Mark! Thanks zillionss..)
• managed to pull off the HCI progress report in the most effective way possible (Thanks for sticking with me all day long for 3 consecutive days)
• got an email saying: "calm down...buat keje slow2....insyallah boleh nye........ingattt!!!!!!!!!!!be strong...cz i know u are!!!! " (in the exact copy and paste form)Yeahh..I know..simple words je..But then in times like these (time aku tgh bengong), they are really really helpful.
• my supervisors amazement at my in-depth knowledge on statistical analysis (Lazaros..your da man!! ahahaha..)

Major demotivator(s):

• Could not go back to sleep after unintentionally waking up at 6 this morning. Slept at nearly 4. memangla tak cukup tido..Nyesal giler bangun.. Nyesal.Nyesal.Nyesal.Takde pekdah langsung.Lagi bertambah cranky ade laa..
• Yesterday i was all cranky. Mission to find a goddamn good listener to listen me,yapping on and on about how tragic my day was not accomplished. Ended up calling a dear friend of mine at a very odd hour.Eventhough your so far away but thanks giler aah! (Kau la satu-satunye harapan time time-time camnih)
• Still couldnt get the Metamodel concept into my head
• Mom suddenly had quite a serious bleeding from the previous accident.I was really overcome with panic and fear. Takut giler.Serious..(That explains why I was all cranky yesterday)
• I am still cranky today :(

I want to be happy cam kat atas tuh..